Missing you
Hey my Ash, your sisters went to grief camp even Kate this time! and she loved it, why doesnt anyone ever listen to me?? well there is so much that I would love to tell you and talk with you about, Im still so empty Im afraid to break the news but time doesnt heal all wounds, I miss you more and more and sometimes wonder what you would be doing where and when WHY??? Kate is the same age as you now,I hate it Ive made her wait but she keeps bugginig me about gettinig her permit I originally told her not till 18 , I dont know I couldnt protect you..I cant go thru this again but how long do I make her wait till she graduates college!!! hell no one is safe people still fly up and down the road your cross is a reminder everyday how careless they can be in a hurry to go nowhere..well wish you where here to see how eveyone has grown soon Kate will pass you up I hate it...I love and miss you so much .. Love youMom
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My heart just broke into a million pieces when I read your journal I feel the same way I\'m like a mother hen to my 2 daughters but I won\'t or can\'t lose another child.Your in my prayers.Big Hugs,Vicki
I know how hard this is....Kate driving or not and when....I just know that in my heart I know we can\'t keep them from danger...at any age. When you feel Kate is responsible enough for the priveldge, you need to let her have that experience. It\'s a right of passage that we all have at some point in time. Let Kate\'s time come in HER time, not yours....meaning when it\'s right for her, (not just because she says the times right), and not because your fears have subsided. Let\'s face it, that will never happen. You will sit by the phone and watch the door each time she leaves....but you must let her leave one day.... This may not help, and may not be the time/place for this memory, but I\'m reminded of a mom that was on here...can\'t remember who....but her 13 year old son drown while taking a shower. He\'d slipped and hit his head knocking him unconscious. No one heard him fall. It was tragic...just as tragic and Ashley\'s and Kala\'s accidents. But we wouldn\'t stop our kids from showering, and we can\'t stop them from living. I hope I haven\'t over steps my bounds. We\'ve been friends on here for over 2 years. I count you as a special friend. I\'d never say anything to purposely hurt you. I hope you know that. Here if you need me, Teri.
Thanks for your comments, of course you are not overstepping! I value what you ladies have to say cause I know you mean well and will tell me the truth! I know she will have to drive but I really dont think I can trust her she lies at home and doesnt do things she is supposed to so how do I trust her in a car with free roam??? life is so hard....love you guys:) HUGS
Kim
Hi I feel your pain my son was killed in a car accident he was 18 way to young to die and i know how you wonder what they would be doing now and everything i miss him more and more each day take care Donna
I think that you will know when it is the time to let her get her permit. We have experienced the worst pain ever...so we deserve to \"over react\". We don\'t want to live in fear either. It is so hard to get to a place where we can relax when it comes to our children. I don\'t know if we will EVER really relax...but we will get more comfortable with the possibility. So...give yourself time....love to you...Karen