missing......

my brother is missing!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! he was supposed to go to college yesterday.....my parents drove him down and they stopped a relatives house on the way and then he told a lie took the car and drove off.......my parents filed police reports and his license place and name are on a nation wide search.......his car is on the welfare check too.......he doesn't wanna be found....NO ONE knows where he is....not his friends, his girlfriend, not my family or i...NO ONE.....i feel like cutting, but i know i can't.....i'm supposed to go to school on tuesday and i feel like i can't.....i feel like i should be stronger than this.....i cry ALL THE TIME and i feel like i should DO something or that i should just pull it together and be strong for my family, but i just can't do that right now......my grades are gonna suffer and my life won't get better until he's back......he's probably out of the state now...and ug!!