MISS MY DS FAMILY...I HOPE YOU ALL ARE BETTER

Hello DS family/Friends, It's been such a long time. I still come here from time to time, just to check on things...I GUESS. As I'm writing I ask myself, outside of missing the great people I have met here and hoping things are better for them...WHAT OTHER REASON DO I COME BACK? I just admitted to myself that deep down..I'm looking for...A CHANGE...in the actions of a cheater. I keep thinking that when I do open up this forum, it will be less NEW members. I guess I'm still a bit naïve. This world has sadly changed. People don't have the morals or characters in which I was raised with. I'm 42..guess I'm getting up there, although I don't look it. I'm still fighting off guys my oldest sons' age (22). Remember when guys would open doors to cars and restaurants without a second thought? Or give a lady or a child their seat on the bus. Remember when you could get a ride from a stranger if you had miles to tread? Remember when you could leave your door unlocked or simply place the key under your doormat? Those days are looooong gone. A few months back a 14 year old girl was shot in the head cause she wouldn't give a guy her seat on the bus..SMH! A few weeks after a guy opened fire in a club cause the DJ wouldn't play his song. SOME PEOPLE ARE JUST EVIL and have most people ON GUARD..NOT KNOWING WHO YOU CAN TRUST. With that being said, At the end of this year which is only a few months away. I've been single and celibate for 3 years now. I've never been the kind of woman who dated around anyway. Being cheated on this last time changed me....for the BETTER I believe. I do miss having someone I rush home to, cook/clean for, dress up for, snuggle with. But I'm simply NOT taking any shorts or settling. Don't get me wrong, I meet guys daily. But it's like ho-hum.....what do you bring to the table. Seems most aren't interested in the good women. They seem to prefer the loosey goosies. The ones who put it all out there, sexually aggressive. There's this one female that works with me and I swear she's had about 15 different boyfriends in a 6 month time frame. She's known as the office "PIECE"...and she is totally oblivious to that. Seems to be what they like. She's constantly on me to get out more. I'll pass. I've been working hard, saving my money and raising my beautiful son. He has been worth every ounce of hurt I endured dealing with his father (the cheater). Still haven't said a word to him. He spent 2 years in jail and was released in February this year. He's called a few times, but I refuse to deal with him on any level. he's undeserving of acknowledgement. His mother still gets our son every week and keeps him for 2 or 3 days. He gets to see him then. I posted new pics so you guys can see how big he's grown and what a cute little monster he is. Nick named him Freddycat. I'm still unsure if I've forgiven him? Perhaps not since I don't affiliate myself, but OH WELL. He made his choices and I've made mine. I pray daily that GOD places forgiveness in my heart, cause I'm woman enough to admit I can hold a grudge for an eternity. However if forgiveness does reach my heart....I'll never forget and I simple don't think he deserves any form of acknowledgement from me whatsoever. I know it's sad because we do have a child, but I can live with that. Well, just wanted to catch you guys up. I hope everyone is doing good...better. My prayers and sympathy go out to the new members who have joined since I last wrote. Talk to you guys later.