miss him so much
well here it is, another day without him and I am lost, sad, confused, mad, were getting our home back why did this have to happen? I just do not understand, things were finally going to get better,we were getting our home back and he was going to start a trucking job that he could have been home every day. I was job hunting, the kids was happy. Why God? why did you take him? what did I do to cause myself and my family this pain? He was 47, that's to young to die, I thought we would be 80, 90 years old together,still having fun, going places doing things.I never expected this,I don't guess anybody does.I feel so lost.
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well,another day and life still sucks, can\'t find a place to live,I keep looking,can\'t afford to buy nothing,so have to rent,might just as well throw money down the toliet,may have to stay in hotel till we find something in this county. I miss Pat every minute, I am so sick of doing everything alone, my kids try to help but all the decisions are up to me and I was use to talking to Pat about everything.Which way do I go now? Life is so unfair and so screwed up
so here we go again,another day of confusion,pain,not wanting to b here,all I want is to b with Pat, I can not take this, life hurts to much, I think I am going insane, I can not go on like this