miss him

This is probably the hardest time of the day. Late evening. Ken goes to bed early & I read or watch TV or read journals on FMO. The tears begin. The first thing when I wake up I remember. I remember Eddie passed away. I remember that my life is changed forever. Then I get busy with my day. But night-time. Its when the hurt & pain come. I had a dream the other night that Eddie was playing all different instruments in Heaven. Eddie loved music all kinds. I hope that is what Heaven is like for him.

Just rambling. Don't know why. I'm just very sad without Ed living here on earth. I will never understand how someone can be fine one minute & dead the next. I am thankful, so thankful he didn't suffer, but so can't understand how this happened.

Dear Heavenly Father, please ease my troubled soul. Please help all of us on DS to have healing and peace. Please tell Eddie I love him. In Jesus name. Thank you and amen.

I love you, Eddie. Rest with the Lord. Mom