Miss you...

I can still remember the words & what they meant, although everything seemed clear we cruised along at half speed, but then we shifted gears, but even then you should have stayed, but you ran away...Just what are you running from?? Where have you gone? A missing identity consumes me as I struggle to find out who my friends are. I remember way back I used to skip class just to be with you, and used to sneak out late at night just to see you're smile before I went to bed, waking up extra late for class because I was on the phone with you all night just seemed so right. & all these thoughts in my mind I've got to get them out I'm trying, but I just can't figure out how, and now every time I call I never get through even with all that bullshit you & you're family put me through I still truly miss you, and it's just like you kicked me out, and moved on to the next one I hope someday we can work it out because damn I miss you & wishing you were here right now. I mean daily I've been waiting for the time to pass & let it you fade it, but lately my patience has been driving me crazy making me fall apart I mean what do you do when the truth isn't quite enough? when everyone is telling you what to do & that we need to break it up, but don't you remember my touch? oh god I miss it so much please believe me baby I need you. I have tried to move on, but I just can't move on it's like you have some kind of hold on me I'm just sitting here looking out the window like damn trying to figure out our situation that's at hand I mean you're still running through my mind, and I know that you shouldn't be even though we ended things a year ago, but I still have a lot of pain I haven't dealt with it all, and that's not even the end of it I'm sitting here trying to let you go I can't get a grip of it, and that's all I want to let you know. I've been working at it & it isn't getting any better instead of starring at this glass looking at the bad weather I have just got to pull myself together because dealing with somebody else & all I think about is you...and when I am all alone that's all I want to do I miss you're funny faces & messages on my phone all the times we spent together makes it hard to get you out of my mind. Now I can't see nothing, and now my everything has turned to nothing. I never had this kind of problem in my life this is the first time dealing with this kind of fight, and it's literally every night & every sight I swear this isn't even right...and you know exactly what you do to me how can you not even understand, but yes you do it's true all you want is me dead & to get out of you're life it was so stupid wasting time trying to make you my wife. I just never wanted anything more kinda lost in love it just wasn't real it wasn't enough I was just lost in love....lost in love...