Miss you
Hi honey,
I feel such a need to put into words what I've been feeling since you're gone. Last night I heard your song to me "I Swear" and the floodgate of tears opened up. It brought back so many good memories; driving in the car and hearing that song and you'd grab my hand and kiss it. I miss finding the little notes around the house you'd leave for me, I miss sitting on the couch watching tv and just rubbing each other's legs (ok, you did most of the rubbing), I miss hearing you say "hi sexy" even though I looked a mess at times. I miss hearing you say "I love you every time we'd end a phone conversation or the times you'd call just to say you were thinking about me and wanted to tell me you loved me. I know the last 3-1/2 months were so miserable for you and not the way you would have wanted to live. You were always so full of live and ready to do anything. I knew when you didn't want friends visiting you were were feeling alot worse than I even knew. You never complained, you are my hero. There are so many other things I miss - I love you so much and feel so blessed to have been able to share 36 years with you. The kids are a blessing, Todd called your cell phone on Father's Day just to hear your voice. Being single, he's havig the hardest time of all I think. Can't wait till we meet again and as you said on your anniversary card to me: "Can't wait till we can hold each other in our arms again" With all those tubes you had in at the end, that was impossible and one of my biggest regrets, I missed those hugs
I feel such a need to put into words what I've been feeling since you're gone. Last night I heard your song to me "I Swear" and the floodgate of tears opened up. It brought back so many good memories; driving in the car and hearing that song and you'd grab my hand and kiss it. I miss finding the little notes around the house you'd leave for me, I miss sitting on the couch watching tv and just rubbing each other's legs (ok, you did most of the rubbing), I miss hearing you say "hi sexy" even though I looked a mess at times. I miss hearing you say "I love you every time we'd end a phone conversation or the times you'd call just to say you were thinking about me and wanted to tell me you loved me. I know the last 3-1/2 months were so miserable for you and not the way you would have wanted to live. You were always so full of live and ready to do anything. I knew when you didn't want friends visiting you were were feeling alot worse than I even knew. You never complained, you are my hero. There are so many other things I miss - I love you so much and feel so blessed to have been able to share 36 years with you. The kids are a blessing, Todd called your cell phone on Father's Day just to hear your voice. Being single, he's havig the hardest time of all I think. Can't wait till we meet again and as you said on your anniversary card to me: "Can't wait till we can hold each other in our arms again" With all those tubes you had in at the end, that was impossible and one of my biggest regrets, I missed those hugs
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I could have written this myself. I cried along with you. these things are precious, and will never be forgotten by our hearts. My kids call my husbands cell phone too, as well as I do when I just need to hear him.
I miss those hugs too. but I think they are still giving us \"hugs\" from where they are now. Your song in the car was one of them.
Thank you for sharing such a beautiful journal entry. Hugs Diane
I like to think that too. Life can really suck sometimes.