Miscellaneous thoughts?

First, I would like to say that I am getting anxious and fearful of taking this class that I made the down payment for BUT I WON'T QUIT BEFORE I START IT!  I have tried the 'traditional' college thing 2 times in 20 years (close to 20), and the first time I lasted 30 days (due to being forced to pay bills that weren't even mine, thus resulting in transportation problems), which wasn't even long enough to get some credits.  The second time was this past spring, in which I was lied to by the staff, wasted gas, didn't get the books for (once again) lack of money, thus resulting in (once again) not being able to attend even before starting classes!!! Now, for some of you who are my friends that don't know this fun fact about me: I'm a volunteer only  at the local motel here in my town.  I've been doing it for over 3 years now.  I have also been thinking about the past 3 years+, as well as something that my partner told me last month:  "GOD HAS PUT YOU HERE FOR A REASON,JON! I DON'T KNOW WHAT THAT REASON IS, BUT I KNOW HE DID!"  That was towards the 2nd-to-last week in November.  A week later, I was researching Travel and Tourism Schools for home study and sending for information to (Stratford Career Institute) them, based on the tuition costs that I saw during the research.  Now, today, I found out that "sometime next week I should be enrolled here at the Institute."  For everything that happens in our life, there is ALWAYS something GOOD that comes out of it!  That is what I have to and need to concentrate on: ALWAYS GOOD! Now being 'fearful'...This is what I mean: 1. Fearful of not being 'good' enough to do homestudy.2. Fearful of not graduating the class.3. Fearful of not passing the exams--especially the Geography ones!4. Fearful of not passing the ASTA/IATAN tests that is resulting in of being an 'entry-level' personnel that is certified.5. Not being Certified by the folks in #4.6. Fear of feeling like I have wasted my money that could have been spent on something/somewhere else more productively.7. Feeling like I am not 'worthy' to receive a higher education--even if it is just a Diploma.