Mirrors are so cruel
Well, good and bad weekend. Went to my Mom's on Saturday to get hair cut and colored. I had shorts and a t shirt on. As I sat in that stupid chair, I saw myself in the mirror and felt so frumpy and so disgusted with myself. hair cut looks good though. Then, went to SteinMart and bought a pair of pants and a couple of tops. My mom wears a size 2 and that did not help my self esteem. I didn't take the tags off the clothes. Part of me wants to cry and take them back. I just felt AWFUL in the fitting room. Went grocery shopping at Wegmans after and bought some healthy things. They have these things called CocoPops they make on site. Multigrain, like a rice cake. 16 calories. nice and crunchy. Can use as a snack with some raspberry jam. Sunday, Paul's sister and BIL came over. Ate ok yesteray. Granola cereal & milk, coffee, peach, fat free hot dog with bun, rotisserie chicken breast, baked potato, butter, corn on cob, 1 pc italian bread. I ate a piece of angel food cake and some berries and squirty whipped cream for dessert and then some light micro popcorn for a snack. It has been over 90 degrees forever and now at least for next 5 days. Too hot. Did have 2 days of severe rain and storms and a thunder storm this am. Paul actually had to cut the grass on Saturday, first time in over 3-4 weeks. Down to 150.5 lbs, part of it I am sure is TOM almost over.
David is much better. He did apologize for his behavior at the bowling alley and was helpful this weekend and even tempered. Took a personal day off today. I don't know why, I am still not sleeping well some nights. My brain goes on overdrive the minute my head hits the pillow. I am very tired today. I am packing up the one set of cabinets in the kitchen. paul started taking cabinets out and some flooring. This is going to be over a month of this. Ugh.
Don't know if it is hormones or what, but a couple of days of horrible depressive thoughts. Feelings of loss that haven't even occured, like my life is going so well that it can't last. I can't be this lucky, if that makes sense. Going to try to do some yoga or deep breathing at night before bed.
Got lots of cleaning done this week and today is packing, throwing away, decluttering. Did 12000 steps on Friday and only 8000 steps on Saturday and Sunday. So going to focus on getting in my 10000 steps ever day the rest of this week. Going to focus on taking my vitamins every day (forgot yesterday.) Going to focus on abs this week- bender ball, etc.
I am 96% of the way done my Wii Walk It Out. A few more times and I will be done. Boo! My Golds Gym dance workout comes out on August and I preordered it. Looks like a great workout.
David is much better. He did apologize for his behavior at the bowling alley and was helpful this weekend and even tempered. Took a personal day off today. I don't know why, I am still not sleeping well some nights. My brain goes on overdrive the minute my head hits the pillow. I am very tired today. I am packing up the one set of cabinets in the kitchen. paul started taking cabinets out and some flooring. This is going to be over a month of this. Ugh.
Don't know if it is hormones or what, but a couple of days of horrible depressive thoughts. Feelings of loss that haven't even occured, like my life is going so well that it can't last. I can't be this lucky, if that makes sense. Going to try to do some yoga or deep breathing at night before bed.
Got lots of cleaning done this week and today is packing, throwing away, decluttering. Did 12000 steps on Friday and only 8000 steps on Saturday and Sunday. So going to focus on getting in my 10000 steps ever day the rest of this week. Going to focus on taking my vitamins every day (forgot yesterday.) Going to focus on abs this week- bender ball, etc.
I am 96% of the way done my Wii Walk It Out. A few more times and I will be done. Boo! My Golds Gym dance workout comes out on August and I preordered it. Looks like a great workout.
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