Mild Pain 1/11/2014
So I slept last night and this morning the pain is mild thank God. My friend is picking me up around 10. We are going to have breakfast then visit his mom for a few hours in the hospital while her foot heals up from a diabetic ulcer. Poor thing has been fighting this forever.
It's basically miserable here today. Pouring rain and dark but warm so better then snow. I took my neighbors garbage can in. I don't like her having to come out in this weather with her oxygen. So many people with so many problems. I feel stupid complaining about my pain but sadly it consumes my thoughts right now but I never discount the struggles of others.
I wonder what happens if I solve the pain issue? Will I just go back to worrying about something else? Perhaps that is the lesson of this trial. Stupid things happen and worry doesn't help it just makes it worse. If this pain ever does go away I promise I will NEVER forget!
The stupid thing is if I understood the pain I could deal with it better. If I knew the pain was caused by something specific it would help me live with it better. Having this mystery pain that came from no where and no one can give it a label is part of what drives me crazy. Sometimes things just happen, I know, but it doesn't really help me accept it yet. If it doesn't get better then I will have no choice but to accept it.
Anyway, I'm hoping the pain at least holds off while I am out. That's all I can ask for right now.
It's basically miserable here today. Pouring rain and dark but warm so better then snow. I took my neighbors garbage can in. I don't like her having to come out in this weather with her oxygen. So many people with so many problems. I feel stupid complaining about my pain but sadly it consumes my thoughts right now but I never discount the struggles of others.
I wonder what happens if I solve the pain issue? Will I just go back to worrying about something else? Perhaps that is the lesson of this trial. Stupid things happen and worry doesn't help it just makes it worse. If this pain ever does go away I promise I will NEVER forget!
The stupid thing is if I understood the pain I could deal with it better. If I knew the pain was caused by something specific it would help me live with it better. Having this mystery pain that came from no where and no one can give it a label is part of what drives me crazy. Sometimes things just happen, I know, but it doesn't really help me accept it yet. If it doesn't get better then I will have no choice but to accept it.
Anyway, I'm hoping the pain at least holds off while I am out. That's all I can ask for right now.
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I hope you manage to keep your pain at bay for at least the whole weekend! Tuesday is moving closer, hopefully you will get an answer.
You must be a great guy. This isn\'t the first time you have helped your neighbor out. I know that it means a lot to her. There are many times I need help but there is no one to cal. She doesn\'t even have to ask. That is a very special quality you have.
In a way, was asking myself the same one you are about \"worrying about something else\" if the pain is resolved. I wonder if I will ever allow myself to be happy, if that isn\'t part of the circle of depression.