Middle of the Night
3:30am...I'm getting so frustrated. I've been trying to sleep but can't so I decided to come here and vent and then maybe I'll have some luck. I took melatonin and that didn't even help. I had nothing chocolately or sugary past supper time...though I had movie popcorn, pop, and chocolate during the movie and a hot fudge sunday afterwards. I have an appointment at 10am and I don't feel like I'm going to get any sleep before I go...which is why I'm frustrated. I was planning for a full day and to volunteer later but at this rate I won't be. Well, I won't totally rule it out but I'm not going to force it either. I'm so stressed about the whole volunteering thing. It never seems to work out and I just end up not going and then I feel frustrated and annoyed that I'm not getting there...maybe it's not meant to be...or maybe it is and I'm just screwing things up...I dunno. Let's see...I need to focus on some positives if I want to try to not get too upset so I can maybe get a couple hours of sleep. I did my fitness progress test and I made progress...more then I thought and that was only after 10 workouts. While I am nowhere near were I want to be it's definitely super helpful to know that I'm getting somewhere even after just 10 workouts. The movie Extraordinary Measures was really good. It did get a little boring in the middle...but the ending made the movie worth it. I'm starving...since it's almost 4am I think I'll have breakfast and then try this whole sleep thing again....or maybe I'll just try the sleep thing if I can convince my tummy it doesn't need food yet. This glass of water just isn't cutting it though. Ah well. Remind me if I ever get hooked on meds for sleep again not to pick the one week that I'm most prone to insomnia to give them up completely. I had been cutting back and cutting back gradually...and I should have probably done another week...but too late now.