Mid March Happenings

March has been a little interesting, Tensions at work has been increasing and people are leaving, as I like to say like flies. As time passes people at work are moving up bettering themselves, in which I don't blame them. I still have not heard anything back from the lawyer that is suppose to be helping me expunge my name from the felony charges that have occurred back in 1994. it is something that again the legal system has failed me. I do not know what to say about that but I would like to free Daniel's Name from having the felony charges. It is at least I can do for him. Things have been challenging for me trying to figure out ways to get the things I need like a car, a place of my own but you can't get both at the same time. I feel that I am starting to out live my welcome living with Katrina's family,, I guess you can say that I am getting that feeling as I want to move forward. I am starting to come up with more goals for me to challenge myself. I can say for sure that I have accomplished another one of my goals of getting my credit score in a better position than it has been for many years, it nice to have a score of a 735. having many credit cards and being responsible for using them.

Earlier this year I have read an article on taking certain natural herbs it could bring your blood pressure down to normal levels only to have my blood pressure whacked out running at 120/101 when I had mine checked out at Temple hospital during my post op appointment. I was concerned about it seeing it at that level , as I quickly stopped taking it , called the company about it, as they requested the remaining bottles back  et a full refund back.

Took the herbs it not only caused my bottom number to rise but my weight increased as well by 10 pounds , I didn't like that at all , causing me to have a gut and now I am having difficulties getting rid of it.  My weight jumped from 134 to 149 in an alarming rate. As of now I am sitting at 145 trying hard to bring it down more to a more reasonable level , like back down to 134 in hopes to get rid of the gut. So I would look good in my  swim suit. I am looking forward this year being at the beach for the first time looking as a female , without being self conscious of having a male organ in the middle of my legs. I don't have to worry about it anymore.

Another topic I would like to touch upon in this month is that I finally got an answer from my dad, being worried that he wouldn't accept me for who I am as I was shocked to read from his letter that " It would seem that I have a daughter" not mentioning about him losing his son in the process.  Again I will say that I was surprised to hear him say that but I am glad He didn't reject me. I can not say much for Merle and my own kids in that matter.

I can't say that March was all good it is showing some concerns like things are kind of rough at work, also finding out that my son Danny and Merle both contracted Covid19 from his girlfriend as he managed to pull through without complications but I can't much for his mother. From what I was told by Merle is that her symptoms were bad, having one of her lungs collapse, losing her eye sight in her bad eye going completely blind but losing some in her good eye as well. It saddens me to hear this also it upsets me that I am not there to help out, but on the other hand I am not glad I wasn't there. One good thing out of all of this is that Robert and Vanne was spared from getting it. Thank God for that! Even though I am 100 miles away from them I still care and love them very much. I even sent her flowers as she thanked me for sending them to her. I wish everything was different back then because it still hurts me as I still love her, I still break down and cry about wishing that things were different years ago. On a sad note I did mention it to my friends only to hear from them that she deserved as Karma bit her, but I still pray that I don't.

As for myself ever since I got the surgery done I am happy but It increased my maintenance has increased significantly, I have to dilate an hour every day at first I did a half an hour before I went back to work so now I am doing it for an hour. But I have develop a complication. After dilation that I am finding out that I am bleeding but where!! I find blood on my pad showing it to be in the middle top and sometime at the bottom. So I am going to have Dr. Douglas to take a look at me. I do know that Dr. Douglas Is going to have to back and do some repair work that she tells me that it does happen after the surgery, but I am not looking forward to having it done but it is a concern. As for the rest of this month I am going to look into other ways to clear my name as I would like to find a better paying job before I get to old to be hired. Will see what happens , also trying to find a place to have on my own since Merle did not bother to listen to me when she asked me should we use the money we have for a house or a business. But of course I was looking out for the family as I told her to put it down on a house only to find out she went for the rent on a store, but it is what it is.

As I continue living as a female I am enjoying it considerably, I just wish that I was born a female but it an experience to live both as a male and now a female.