Mid cycle IUI scan- round 2

Today was my mid-cycle scan to check my follicles, I have a 22 on my right ovary and a 14 and 17 on my left. I have to now use my OPK everyday until I get a smiley face.  I wish they would  just give me the ovudrel shot and get this going since one is so ready,but the nurse said they are going to wait it out to see if the 17 follicle will get bigger.  They said that my body is responding well to the Chlomid. I think it's weird that I'm only getting one mature follicle but they said that's all I need.  I'm putting my trust in my doc and I'm really hoping this will happen for us this month. 
I will say that I've been more relaxed this cycle, partly because I'm just expecting it not to work so I won't get my hopes up like I did the last time. I feel like such a negative, stupid person for not being "hopeful" and excited again, but this is how I protect myself.  I've still been practicing my deep breathing and meditation and I'm even thinking of acupuncture. I've heard that it's helped so many people with fertility problems.
I just kinda feel blahh, not sure if it's still the Chlomid or if I'm just exhausted from all of this.

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HopefulinNYC
HopefulinNYC

I hear ya on not getting overly excited, its sad how IF makes us so self-protective. I\'ve done acupuncture for 2 retrievals and 1 FET now with a fertility acupuncturist, and although I\'m not sure it helps with fertility, it definitely relaxes me and eases my anxiety about all of this. Good luck to you and here\'s hoping this is your cycle!
krjohnson1980
krjohnson1980

Thanks HopefulinNYC, I figured why not try it, at this point I don\'t have anything to lose!