Messed up sleep again
I got less than 8 hours of sleep last night. I think it's because I didn't take my Restoril last night and so I'm already not used to sleeping without it. I woke up around 6:30am and couldn't fall back asleep, so I just went and volunteered for a while. I came home and took a 2 hour nap, so I did get my 10 hours, just not all in a row. I hope I'm not addicted to the Restoril already... I'm going to not take it again tonight to see what happens. I'm tired like I was last night, so it shouldn't be a problem going to sleep. I don't really feel hypomanic... I just feel tired. I was able to get that nap in, so it should tell me I'm not hypomanic. I worry when I don't get my sleep that I'm going hypomanic, because that's my first clue. I'm ready for sleep already, just have to wait to take my pills. Well, that and write this journal.
Today was another good day, though. I've been hallucinating all day, but not too bad. In the morning I woke up and thought at first I was hallucinating a black spot but it turned out to just be a black dot on my glasses. I have been seeing bugs for just a second here and there, though. I do have extra Risperdal if I need to take it. I will see how I do over the next couple of days and see if I need more Risperdal. I've already talked it over with my doctor, so he knows I can experiment with it if I need to. I volunteered and just folded mail for the most part... I was working with another volunteer who spoke fluent Spanish, so she did most of the translating. I can speak it okay, just not very well. I can speak it well enough to do the translation job, so that's all that's needed. It's just basic stuff, like date of birth and what doctor do you need to see. I can do most of it well enough on my own, so I didn't need but appreciated the help. It's always good to be with someone who really knows what they are doing.
I've been feeling really good these past few days and I'm glad. I've been feeling bad for so long that I almost forgot what feeling good was. I'm not going to upgrade my mood to excellent, just leaving it at good for now. I was supposed to go to the store today, but we had a storm and I couldn't go. I've been feeling well enough to go out and do my chores which is something at least. I've been trying to keep up with my exercise and did well today.. I walked 1.3 miles today- but not all at once. I walked .7 miles and then .6 miles. That was going to the clinic and going to sign our lease here. I like the place we're living, it's nice. It may not have the pool we wanted here, but there is a chance they might open it before summer is over. It's just hard when they need to do work on the pool and there's lightning and thunder every day for a couple hours, so they can't be out by the pool. I like swimming, and once they reopen the pool I plan on going again. There is a pool at the apartment complex next door and we are welcome there, it's just that I don't like walking over there in my bathing suit. I feel like a moocher since it's not our pool. Not like management minds, they let people from all around the area use the pool- I don't know if they know that they are not from the complex or not, since both of the two complexes owned by them are big. I know because I see the people walking home in their bathing suits crossing the street.
Food was good today... I had Chinese food but stayed in my calorie range. I got a gift card today, so I used part of it to get the Chinese food. It's just something I had been craving for a while, and when I came home from volunteering I wanted something to eat that was easy since I was so tired. Can't get easier than take out! lol right? I had peaches for breakfast and coffee, and regular dinner. I've been dealing with an upset stomach for part of the day and I'm wondering if it was the Chinese food, since I got the heartburn right after I ate it. Stress was medium today... I was stressed about signing the lease and wanted to make sure it got done, and a bit stressed when I couldn't go to the store and we need milk. We will make do for a couple days. I'm supposed to go see my mom on Friday now, this Friday to next Friday. I will see my therapist on Thursday of this week if I can get an appointment in. I'm trying to call her now to see if I can get in. Something was wrong with her phone, so I'm going to try her tomorrow. Okay, I'm tired and it's almost time to take my pills, so I'm going to sign off for now.
Today was another good day, though. I've been hallucinating all day, but not too bad. In the morning I woke up and thought at first I was hallucinating a black spot but it turned out to just be a black dot on my glasses. I have been seeing bugs for just a second here and there, though. I do have extra Risperdal if I need to take it. I will see how I do over the next couple of days and see if I need more Risperdal. I've already talked it over with my doctor, so he knows I can experiment with it if I need to. I volunteered and just folded mail for the most part... I was working with another volunteer who spoke fluent Spanish, so she did most of the translating. I can speak it okay, just not very well. I can speak it well enough to do the translation job, so that's all that's needed. It's just basic stuff, like date of birth and what doctor do you need to see. I can do most of it well enough on my own, so I didn't need but appreciated the help. It's always good to be with someone who really knows what they are doing.
I've been feeling really good these past few days and I'm glad. I've been feeling bad for so long that I almost forgot what feeling good was. I'm not going to upgrade my mood to excellent, just leaving it at good for now. I was supposed to go to the store today, but we had a storm and I couldn't go. I've been feeling well enough to go out and do my chores which is something at least. I've been trying to keep up with my exercise and did well today.. I walked 1.3 miles today- but not all at once. I walked .7 miles and then .6 miles. That was going to the clinic and going to sign our lease here. I like the place we're living, it's nice. It may not have the pool we wanted here, but there is a chance they might open it before summer is over. It's just hard when they need to do work on the pool and there's lightning and thunder every day for a couple hours, so they can't be out by the pool. I like swimming, and once they reopen the pool I plan on going again. There is a pool at the apartment complex next door and we are welcome there, it's just that I don't like walking over there in my bathing suit. I feel like a moocher since it's not our pool. Not like management minds, they let people from all around the area use the pool- I don't know if they know that they are not from the complex or not, since both of the two complexes owned by them are big. I know because I see the people walking home in their bathing suits crossing the street.
Food was good today... I had Chinese food but stayed in my calorie range. I got a gift card today, so I used part of it to get the Chinese food. It's just something I had been craving for a while, and when I came home from volunteering I wanted something to eat that was easy since I was so tired. Can't get easier than take out! lol right? I had peaches for breakfast and coffee, and regular dinner. I've been dealing with an upset stomach for part of the day and I'm wondering if it was the Chinese food, since I got the heartburn right after I ate it. Stress was medium today... I was stressed about signing the lease and wanted to make sure it got done, and a bit stressed when I couldn't go to the store and we need milk. We will make do for a couple days. I'm supposed to go see my mom on Friday now, this Friday to next Friday. I will see my therapist on Thursday of this week if I can get an appointment in. I'm trying to call her now to see if I can get in. Something was wrong with her phone, so I'm going to try her tomorrow. Okay, I'm tired and it's almost time to take my pills, so I'm going to sign off for now.
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