Merry Christmas?

My cold is worse today so I will be resting today.  I cant seem to get past what my ex did.  Im going to send him an offcial email telling him not to send me any personal comments or emails anymore.  He only does this for his pleasure and not for mine.  They are only reminders of 16 years lost for me.  I dont understand why I cant associate with people.  At 46 i have one good friend but thats all.

My whole life ive given to others and those people arent even around.  Its like i just attract takers.