mentions food ***

Ho-hum. Things are pretty boring around here. I wish we could have a giant DS get together. That would be really cool.      Any ways, today eating was a challenge. I'm actually not sure whether what I ate was okay or not, even though I'm generally reasonable and undertanding with what my mutritional needs are, even though I don't always meet those needs. Today I had a sald with no calorie dressing and about a half cup of fat free croutons. I also had three slices of soy salami, which was about 80 cals, three slices od cheese, a baked potoato, some broccoli, and three veggie dumplings. I had my calcium chews for the day, so I'm covered on that front.        I'm still struggling with the whole popularity issue, but trying to not let it define me. Feel like I'm going out of my skull with craziness. I'm also a little worried because I think this was the way I felt with the starvation and it feels like a high from a drug. I feel loopy and crazy. Uh oh.  Well, I can't really write anymore, I'm seeing double. I keep having random thoughts about cutting food into little pieces so negligable I cannot see them any more. Why am I being so psychotic?