Menopause nightmare
I met another women going through menopause at a local bookstore on Monday. She looked my age so I approached her. Do you have any books on menopause i asked her? no she said we mainly carry fiction books here. why are you going through it too, (menopause) yes I said and it's horrible.
We began to exchange stories on our struggles with menopause. she explained all her symptoms to me and at the point I realized I was not alone in what I would describe as a very extreme case of menopause.
I even had my councilor explain to me one day that she has heard of women that experienced menopause to this degree but I kinda felt she was trying to make me feel better or something I guess not really believing that it menopause could be this bad.
Menopause has completely changed my life. I am struggling everyday to just get through the day. I don't even feel like the same person.
I get up everyday feeling very bad and go to bed sometimes feeling worse! I can't believe their are women out there that are working everyday I work at just getting through the day.
My goal is to go back to work one day but don't know if that will every happen maybe my job right now is to get my self better!
My symptoms are: Trembling, Trouble breathing, Tinnitus (ringing)in my ear or ears this is almost everyday too and is so loud hard to function sometimes. I used to cry a lot. I've heard a lot of women say they cry for no reason, I'm not like that I'm crying because I'm so scarred with all these different issues going on...feel like I'm dying.
I am on Xanax so I don't cry that much anymore and the tremors are better but I'm still really scarred most of the time due to all the changes in my life .
I hope to get through this one day and hope I can help someone else going through this nightmare of menopause.
We began to exchange stories on our struggles with menopause. she explained all her symptoms to me and at the point I realized I was not alone in what I would describe as a very extreme case of menopause.
I even had my councilor explain to me one day that she has heard of women that experienced menopause to this degree but I kinda felt she was trying to make me feel better or something I guess not really believing that it menopause could be this bad.
Menopause has completely changed my life. I am struggling everyday to just get through the day. I don't even feel like the same person.
I get up everyday feeling very bad and go to bed sometimes feeling worse! I can't believe their are women out there that are working everyday I work at just getting through the day.
My goal is to go back to work one day but don't know if that will every happen maybe my job right now is to get my self better!
My symptoms are: Trembling, Trouble breathing, Tinnitus (ringing)in my ear or ears this is almost everyday too and is so loud hard to function sometimes. I used to cry a lot. I've heard a lot of women say they cry for no reason, I'm not like that I'm crying because I'm so scarred with all these different issues going on...feel like I'm dying.
I am on Xanax so I don't cry that much anymore and the tremors are better but I'm still really scarred most of the time due to all the changes in my life .
I hope to get through this one day and hope I can help someone else going through this nightmare of menopause.
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So sorry you are going through this but know i\'m with you on it. I struggle everyday too and hope we both can get through it alive. I have the ringing in my ears also, I\'v learned to block it out most the time but i hear it all the time. Sometimes it will be really loud other times not. I pray we both can find a good doctor who will listen and know what\'s wrong. Much love to you!
Brenda thanks so much! I hope we both find the good doctor\'s we need too. I hope you have a great day tomorrow in spite of all the crap going on with us. Much love and hugs to you too. Happy Thanksgiving!
Vicki...
Are you OK??? YOu havent been on the site for so long... Chel and I were gettting concerned.. Is your family OK?
How are your T,M,A,A reflux issues? I hope you are Ok and maybe are taking a break from the site.. Sometimes it is all overwhelming! Keep hope in your heart!!
Lesley
Lesley your so sweet for your concern for me. I really appreciate it. I posted on chel\'s thread. I didn\'t really go into everything but really did not have the best Christmas, lots of acid reflux mixed with a lot of other issues. I did not receive the paper work from the new doctor i was supposed to see. I finally called them last week wondering where the paper work was they had no information on me so there re-sending the paper work this Monday I am sure I will be seen in the next few weeks. I have so many issues it\'s so depressing but don\'t like to tell anybody, I don\'t know .I think I don\'t want to tell any body how bad I really feel i don\'t want any body worrying to much.
I am doing okay for now and with the new year maybe better health will come my way!! I hope your doing well. I will keep you posted on my progress. Thanks again for your support and friendship. Vicki.
Ohhh... I am so sorry Vicki... I am trying not to weep!!
I hope you are not feeling some sort of stigma or embarassed re your issues...but you are right people do worry and I dont even know you and I was worried LOL!!! I am extremely intuitive and I just understand a lot and I wondered if you were avoiding being on the site... which I totally understand. Many people go through what you are going through. I totally understand you not wanting to share all of this though... this is truly private and when you have so much you are worried about it is hard to feel good about anything in your life! I get it totally!!!
I am concerned about you and I am here if you need help with navigating all you are going through or just need to vent or support.
I will give you my email if you need some help but I totally understand your need for privacy as well... just let me know...
I can tell you have a lovely soul and spirit just based on our threads! You are very good with others as well!!
Just take each issue a day at a time and try and deal with each issue one at a time..
Oh Gosh... I will be praying and thinking about you a lot!!!
I am sending you an immense hug!!!!
Lesley
Thank you so much Lesley. I think my problem is i get really depressed and then just shut down. I\'ve always been that way. I am the Cancer sign other wise know as the crab and I tend to want to stay in that shell. A sort of protective covering for me. I do get embarrased I can\'t believe I am in this situation some times. I used to be such a strong person. I was always able to deal with things and then move on, now I get trapped in how I am feeling and really harp on it and let me tell you I have never in my life been that way. I told my councilor the other day I have no control over my life any more. I told him I cant go anywhere after 10:am due to me having to take Xanax, don\'t want to drive so that\'s out. It also makes me feel like a Zombie. so that doesn\'t help. I can go out after 2:00 p.m. but I really never feel like going anywhere due to my anxiety. I do take advantage of my good days though. There are days that I feel really blessed that is for sure. I think to myself wow I had to get a little sick before realizing all this.
I know and could tell right away that you are very intelligent, and understand people very well. I also am a little intuitive. I have always been that way. You have been a big help to me and feel so blessed to have you as someone I can talk to. I really do feel like I can talk to you but I do tend to go inward and then it takes awhile before i get out of that \"shell\" I will be sending you a friendship request and my email if you don\'t mind. Thanks Lesley for everything. Vicki.
HI Vicki,,
yes I will email you later today.. I just put it in to my addresses..
I definitely understand.. I actually have a very close friend who is dealing with the same symptoms as you,, I know how isolating this issue is.. Isolating is a good word for it.. YOu are human!! Dont be so hard on yourself!! WE all go through these issues!! I am just lucky at the moment and am really counting my blessings
You will be that strong person again. I have no doubt about it. This issue will get better..
Remember my girlfriend who has the really bad meno symptoms too?? She is getting quite a bit better now but it has taken about 4 years.. This after age 50 thing is really hard for women and there are other issues involved as well.. It is all complicated!
I get the feeling you have worked in the helping profession. Am I right?
OK I will email you later and we can talk about some stuff on a more private level!! We have a ton of snow here!! Yuck!!! That is Toronto for you!! It is getting to minus 30 here tonight. I cant remember what that is in fahrenheit.
I dont think I am that intelligent but thanks!! But I know I am pretty empathetic and have been blessed with great intuition.. I can tell you are that way as well
HUge hugs!!
Lesley you are so right about a lot of things, i just for some reason tend to think I am the only one going through this. I do have a friend that I talk to but she\'s not quite as bad as me. Yes you are right about the helping profession as well. I was a CNA for many years. I had some completed courses for my LVN but life got in the way and never finished with my LVN.
you really are very smart. talk to you soon, Vicki.
I forgot to say stay warm over there. Man that is very cold I\'be been watching the weather channel and hearing about the cold temps and knowing some people are without electricity in some areas. Stay safe!!!
I can completely relate to your initial post. it is such a horrid shock and some people seem to get a very bad version of menopause. Others seem to coast through. it feels like hell. I needed to become a member of this group to share stories and give and receive compassion. Other people just think What is your problem!? well.... the whole bottom just dropped out of my world. everything I used to be able to depend upon reliably about my daily experience of my body and mind, pffffft.... gone!!! Hormones are so powerful and when they drop it is literally hell.