Memory of Tamzin's 1st drive without me

Hello  I wrote this in response to seeing your photo (djlchill)of your son Chris with his car. The first time Tamzin drove my car without me was at 4am in Sydney when he was about 19 or 20. He'd had an emergency call from his work at the inner city Sydney Woolworths store where Tam was in charge of Security at that time. So he had to get in there fast to check why the fire alarms were going and sprinklers had been all set off. At that time, about 1997(he was still doing his Uni Degree as well) Tamzin, Nat & I were living in a little flat, about a half hour drive from the centre of Sydney.
That night little Nat then only 4, was fast asleep in bed and so there was no choice- I could not go with Tam. I had to let him take my car for the 1st time. So I watched from the kitchen window paralysed & crying, as he drove the car out and I couldn't move from that spot til he returned an hour or so later. I was so scared and cried the whole time.
But he survived that drive and others after. It helps when they come home safe. I was always afraid of Tam being hurt, but then he got diagnosed with cancer at 22, so we just have to hope they survive longer than us. I hope it wasn't wrong that I wrote that last bit in.
Now my Nat is 17 and driving as a learner so I can still sit beside him but it wont be long til I have to face the same sickening fear when he drives without me there. By the way-I miss Tamzin as much as ever - time hasn't made any difference to that- if anything I feel even more ripped off for him especially (& for Nat & I losing him).
Flat out tho now trying to keep up with Nat..