Memories of this day
Oh Roger I just remembered this weekend you would be our clubs golf archery shoot. Last year you and Emily won the Horse round. Your first and last. It was your last golf shoot of the clubs. I did go to the banquet, it was ok just not the same.
You would have set up your course last night, had a few drinks with the guys, got up this morning had a big outdoor breakfast in our camper, signed in some shooters and probably been out on one course by now.
I would probably just now be getting in, walking with you to shoot after feeding animals I would drive up there as we no longer had anyone to watch the animals.
We would have sat around, eating and conversing with our archery friends and shooters we see regularly.
I can not believe I almost forgot it. I was so ignoring this day Roger just trying to forget it. I did not want to memoralize you, I wanted to just not think of that word memorial. I started thinking of what we usually did on this day and it dawned on me I forgot the clubs archery shoot. I should have driven up there, and watched or signed in shooters but I think it would be too sad. It was our last shoot together.
Moms in the hospital unexpected so guess I won't drive up there anyway.
I am sure you watching everyone shoot - and watching over them. I miss them, it seems I am not a part of them anymore by myself and does not seem I am a part of anything we had together anymore. I just do not fit in any group category anymore, I do not know where i belong. Will you point me in where to belong? You are in Heaven and I know you are happy can you please show me where I can go to get there too?
I am just sitting around doing nothing....just nothing....I am stuck I need to go forward but there is nothing here to go forward with. There is so much to do before I can sell our place and move, It seems with no one but me to do it...it will take forever I am so discouraged....please send me some one to help me....Ask God to help me. I ask but do not feel connected somehow.
I miss you, I want to be at the Archery shoot with you.
You would have set up your course last night, had a few drinks with the guys, got up this morning had a big outdoor breakfast in our camper, signed in some shooters and probably been out on one course by now.
I would probably just now be getting in, walking with you to shoot after feeding animals I would drive up there as we no longer had anyone to watch the animals.
We would have sat around, eating and conversing with our archery friends and shooters we see regularly.
I can not believe I almost forgot it. I was so ignoring this day Roger just trying to forget it. I did not want to memoralize you, I wanted to just not think of that word memorial. I started thinking of what we usually did on this day and it dawned on me I forgot the clubs archery shoot. I should have driven up there, and watched or signed in shooters but I think it would be too sad. It was our last shoot together.
Moms in the hospital unexpected so guess I won't drive up there anyway.
I am sure you watching everyone shoot - and watching over them. I miss them, it seems I am not a part of them anymore by myself and does not seem I am a part of anything we had together anymore. I just do not fit in any group category anymore, I do not know where i belong. Will you point me in where to belong? You are in Heaven and I know you are happy can you please show me where I can go to get there too?
I am just sitting around doing nothing....just nothing....I am stuck I need to go forward but there is nothing here to go forward with. There is so much to do before I can sell our place and move, It seems with no one but me to do it...it will take forever I am so discouraged....please send me some one to help me....Ask God to help me. I ask but do not feel connected somehow.
I miss you, I want to be at the Archery shoot with you.
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