Memorial Weekend
HAD A NICE MEMORIAL WEEKEND. MOM AND HUSBAND, DAD AND GIRL FRIEND, 3 OF 4 KIDS AND OTHER FRIENDS AND RELATIVES CAME OVER FOR BBQ, GAMES AND CAMP OVER. HAD A NIECE (AMBERS) GRAD PARTY. FUN BUT BUSY WEEKEND. IT IS SO GOOD TO SEE THE FAMILY AND FRIENDS. I,VE BEEN FEELING PRETTY GOOD. HOW EVER I WORRY BECAUSE I STILL OCCASIONALLY THINK OF SUICIDE AND WAYS I COULD DO IT. THIS SEEMS SO STRANGE. I'M SEEING A COUNSOLER AND THAT SEEMS TO HELP. BUT WHY DO THESE THOUGHTS KEEP COMING BACK??? I DON'T LIKE THEM.MY WIFE IS SO GOOD AND MY FAMILY IS GREAT TOO. I WOULD NOT DO ANYTHING TO HURT THEM. I AM LOOKING FORWARD TO A VACATION IN 2 WEEKS. BEEN SO BUSY LOTS OF LONG DAYS. I WAS SUPRISED LAST WEEK TO SEE I DROPPED 4 MORE LBS. I AM HAPPY ABOUT MY WEIGHT. MY WIFE IS SO WORRIED ABOUT THE CHANGES IT MAY HAVE ON ME. I AM TRYING TO TELLHER THAT THIS DOESN'T HURT BUT HELPS OUR RELATIONSHIP BUT SHE WORRIES ABOUT IT. WELL I HAVE SOME BIDS TO WORK ON SO I BETTER GO NOW. HAPPY MEMORIAL DAY TO ALL!!LAZER LENNY
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Hi Lazer, I\'m so glad you had a great weekend with family and friends. We celebrated our long weekend last weekend, don\'t know why because this weekend was the 24th and it was a much better weekend weatherwise. I\'m feeling a little down today, I really feel sad and disappointed that my 2nd marriage broke up, my dreams are all broken and I just feel so alone but I was also alone when me and my husband were together. I\'m living in To, Ont now with my daughter. My Dr. don\'t want me to go back to work yet so I have to depend on puplic assistance which I only get $560.00 per month and they expect you to pay rent out of that and utilities. I don\'t know what to do, I don\'t want to live with my daughter for the rest of my life. Sorry for venting. I hope you have the best vacation ever in the coming 2 wks and that you won\'t think about suiacide not once while youre vacationing. You deserve it now, you\'ve been through enough
Love to all, I\'m glad you have such a well supportive family to back you up.
God bless
Glenda