Memorial Weekend

HAD A NICE MEMORIAL WEEKEND. MOM AND HUSBAND, DAD AND GIRL FRIEND, 3 OF 4 KIDS AND OTHER FRIENDS AND RELATIVES CAME OVER FOR BBQ, GAMES AND CAMP OVER. HAD A NIECE (AMBERS) GRAD PARTY. FUN BUT BUSY WEEKEND. IT IS SO GOOD TO SEE THE FAMILY AND FRIENDS. I,VE BEEN FEELING PRETTY GOOD. HOW EVER I WORRY BECAUSE I STILL OCCASIONALLY THINK OF SUICIDE AND WAYS I COULD DO IT. THIS SEEMS SO STRANGE. I'M SEEING A COUNSOLER AND THAT SEEMS TO HELP. BUT WHY DO THESE THOUGHTS KEEP COMING BACK??? I DON'T LIKE THEM.MY WIFE IS SO GOOD AND MY FAMILY IS GREAT TOO. I WOULD NOT DO ANYTHING TO HURT THEM. I AM LOOKING FORWARD TO A VACATION IN 2 WEEKS. BEEN SO BUSY LOTS OF LONG DAYS. I WAS SUPRISED LAST WEEK TO SEE I DROPPED 4 MORE LBS. I AM HAPPY ABOUT MY WEIGHT. MY WIFE IS SO WORRIED ABOUT THE CHANGES IT MAY HAVE ON ME. I AM TRYING TO TELLHER THAT THIS DOESN'T HURT BUT HELPS OUR RELATIONSHIP BUT SHE WORRIES ABOUT IT. WELL I HAVE SOME BIDS TO WORK ON SO I BETTER GO NOW. HAPPY MEMORIAL DAY TO ALL!!LAZER LENNY