memorial day weekend
i am so frustrated more and more! i havent had a chance to breath since dad died i dont get any time alone and i feel like i am going crazy ....i had to go back to work ( a pretty full stressfull schedule) not my choice we need money. i only have 2 days off this week sunday and monday my sister in law(husbands sis) and wanted us to come over for memorial day I DONT WANT TO i just need some down time if only to do laundry and clean the house plus there is stuff to take care of at dad's my husband says he feels bad about not going over but he wont tell me why because he doesnt want me to feel guilty f#@#! feeling guilty i have done nothing but take care of everything for a very long time, i am run down i am sick my chest and stomach hurt all the time i am having hot flashes like crazy and mostly i just want to be alone ....tonight my husbands band has a show i have to go because i am the photographer and i have missed all of his other shows because of all the recent events. i will get through that by having a few drinks i have worked 6 of the 7 days this week including getting up at 5 today and working 6 hours this morning i know his sister has issues going on but why cant i just have some down time or i feel like i am actually going to have a mi i know i am not handling things well but i guess i feel like i deserve 2 days to myself to cry and grieve and miss my parents on this holiday ....and we just moved my daughter and first grandbaby, who was born 4 days before my dad died, to far away in virginia so this will be a very ruff day normally dad would have been there to eat....f everything i am going to take time and be selfish and be sad if i want and not feel guilty as selfish as that is!
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Sounds like you could just use a day to yourself. Why not encourage your hubby to go to your sil\'s and tell her you are either sick or just need a day of rest. I know sometimes when my hubby is really bad if I get an opportunity to go out I want to go alone and not even have to talk to anyone. You could just sleep in late and maybe take a bubble bath and do your nails. Pick up a few of your favorite foods you don\'t have to cook and maybe a nice glass of wine or two. Forget the cleaning or anything else that needs to be done and just take very good care of you for one day for a change. Whatever you decide, I hope that you have a peaceful day......hugs & prayers
I think we all have to do what we think is best for ourselves and simply live with the consequences. If others care they will understand. If they don\'t care than it does not matter what they think anyway.
((hugs)) Patricia
Do what you need to do for you dear! There are times when we feel selfish but if you do not take care of You , you will be no good for anyone else! Take a day for you !!!!!!!!!