Medication

I just knew the doctor was going to put me back on Prozac the other week, but after telling him about the side effect I got when first using it , he decided on lexapro. Im scared of side effects I looked on line and get mixed results and some people stories are so bad It terrifies me. I've been trying to avoid taking it praying I just magically get better, but truth is I'm not and it sucks and there is a possibility that I may need meds the rest of my life just to be normal again. Its not fair, I keep praying and praying and yet here I sit at work trying to hold back tears and calm my nerves. i want to be happy again, fearless again, motivated and interested again. I don't question GOD, I know he is in control, he allows things to happen for a reason and all works for our good in the end. Its just this meantime that gets to me. I cant run from it any longer will be taking the first pill later today ( I don't have them here). Maybe Ill get lucky and have no side effects at all maybe It will just work. He starting me with 10mg today is the day and time will tell. Please  Pray for me