Me Me Me the fuck up
Well besides being told what a screw up I am cause I had a couple of drinks (two, thats a couple) on Saturday, my son tells me what a screw up I am at work because he sleeps in until 1100 and I take care of everything else and I make tiny little mistakes once in awhile. Like I put the wrong load number on our confirmations to the carrier that I can easily call and say hey, sorry I was off one number, that doesnt happen very often but once in awhile. Then I cant find the last page to a carrier for their contract with us to carry the frieght and he said he knows he got it but sure enough it is no where to be found. I kept calling him this morning (I work at his house so I am calling him in his bedroom) about a load that needs to be picked In California to go to York Pa. He says he will work on it when he gets in here. Comes in at 1100 and the customer is pissed because it was suppose to be picked up at 9am. But he never makes any mistakes.. I am pissed at him and the world. I guess I am the only fuck up in this forsaken world.. Im crying and Im pissed and Im hurt.. I cant stop the tears and I hate it..I am really mad that the person from the land of AA that told me I only posted her comment to me on my journal as I was trying to get sympathy. Hello, why would I even tell anyone I had two, count them two drinks ? Did I really want people to tell me what a loser I am?.. Ok so I dont feel guilty about it. Do I feel like a loser? Yes in alot of respects.. It has really bothered me that she came down on me so hard. Does that mean that I will never have a drink again? No if anything it made me want to go get that freakin bottle she talked about and drown my sorrows. Am I going to do it? Hell no. And then she said that all of you that read this can send sympathy because you have never been an alcoholic etc. etc... Well sorry that I am not Holier then thow.. I am so mad right now between her and my son that I could just kick something or someone.. Guess I better mellow out before I get home.. Well this is my fucking story and Im sticking with it.. Y'VonneOh yea, Sober for two days. No more calves yet and my kitty is still prego incase anybody cares.. Me.. And no I am not going home to get drunk..
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you are not a loser...and that\'s all there is to it!!!!!!!!!!!! you are a human being (even if you look somewhat...bearish) and human beings make mistakes on occasion. you are a wonderful, loving, caring person and no one had the right to chastise you in that manner for a choice you made. you are perfectly capable of beating up yourself without any help from a sanctimonious twit! and i know that your son is irritating you because you\'re already upset. things will get better...i promise. love you maggie
u are human- we all do things we wish we hadn\'t- ur deff not a screw up or a loser- i feel this way about myself at times and i know when family members say hurtful things it just reinforces this in the back of ur mind that it must be true- but he said something that he is gonna regret later- we all love u here girlie and please don\'t be so hard on urself- remember that u are an amazing , caring, loving person who like all of us needs support and love back- so if u ever need to vent i\'m here and i agree with the first reply- things will get better- stay strong even though i know at times it can be hard- big hugs ! Brandi .......
hold your head high honey, you sound determined. great in fact. You\'re a wonderful person whos always there for everyone no matter how bad you\'re feeling and I just want you to know even if we don\'t talk so much these days it\'s a two-way street and I\'m here okay xx
hey, don\'t let anyone get ya down, stay strong, you\'re gonna be fine, keep keeping on, you\'re a great friend and I wish you the best, I have confidence in you. hugs and more hugs, feel better soon
Babes you are the best.... I think so and that is all that matters lol xxxx Keep on trucking, yep you need love and support not sympathy and I will continue to send it to you in bucket loads... fuck em!
Tomorrow will a better day! Hang in!
I\'m so sorry this AA bod got arsey. Maybe it works with some people, but it felt lacking in compassion and understanding to me. I\'m so encouraged that you reset your target, haven\'t hit the bottle in response to her insensitivity, and you\'ve come out fighting.
I admire you. You\'re one strong woman, and you\'ve been such an encouragement to me.
You are so not a loser...hang in there sweetie.....some people just like to get others down....you stand tall with your face straight forward and keep on going....do the best that you can.
Hugs,
Izzie
F that hag!
I am sorry ur feelin bad, u\'ll be ok though!!! I just know!!!!
Your not a screw up you made a mistake- no big deal we all do it.Your human!!
I am so sorry
but we cannot live to please others...so you had a drink, so what!! no one has the right to come down on you for ANYTHING..let the comment blow into the wind
and if your son has a problem too..he will get over it
make YOU happy and let this slide off.....big hugs to you