Me, just being Me--to all that Know me here on DS
I guess one of the things that bother me most here on DS is that I want to help everyone I can and I often feel so inadequate to do so. I have been divorced so, I can relate to Breakups and Divorce. I have been addicted to drugs and alcohol so I can deal with those. I have had my house burn down, lose everything so, I can relate to that. I have had a nervous breakdown and fought depression so I can deal with those. I have lost loved ones to disease, suicide and also lost my son in 2005 in a car wreck so, I can relate to bereavement. I have been stabbed, beat up, busted up, broken bones, have a bullet hole in my leg, been in Biker gangs, lost my job of 20 years due to plant closure. Been rejected, slandered, lied about, lied to, deceived and hurt many times. I have had numerous broken bones, shot at by Police, many physical scars on my body, my brother-in-law was murdered, and in the past 10 years, I have had 3 sisters, 2 brothers, my mother and my son die so, I know sadness too.
Through all of this, I have been a survivor and I want to be the friend to others that I never had, years ago. I still feel I should try to do more, to help others. I reach out to many and there are times when my intentions are taken wrong. In the 4 years I have been here, I have never purposely tried to hurt or harm anyone. I reach out in love because there have been times in my life when I never felt anyone loved me or, cared about me.
When someone you love, does not love you, it hurts. When you do all you know to do and they still reject you, it makes you feel worthless and lonely inside. I have been there too.
This is why I reach out to others and I know I am older than most of those who post here. I am in the autumn years but, hopefully I can still be productive in helping someone here on DS and in the everyday walk in life and if I can, it is worth it all and my life has not been in vain.
Through all of this, I have been a survivor and I want to be the friend to others that I never had, years ago. I still feel I should try to do more, to help others. I reach out to many and there are times when my intentions are taken wrong. In the 4 years I have been here, I have never purposely tried to hurt or harm anyone. I reach out in love because there have been times in my life when I never felt anyone loved me or, cared about me.
When someone you love, does not love you, it hurts. When you do all you know to do and they still reject you, it makes you feel worthless and lonely inside. I have been there too.
This is why I reach out to others and I know I am older than most of those who post here. I am in the autumn years but, hopefully I can still be productive in helping someone here on DS and in the everyday walk in life and if I can, it is worth it all and my life has not been in vain.
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Hey Pee Wee,
You KNOW you\'ve helped me immensely. I cherish your friendship and always will.
Being a very new friend of yours as well,I have to say God Bless you after everything you have been thru thru-out the years you are one strong person.....No worries just bear with the newbies my self included,after being closed off for so long it takes awhile to open back up...glad to know you are here tho ...thank you.
i appreciate all the advice you have ever given me!! even though to my demise i haven\'t always followed it. huge hugs
Thank you for sharing your life with us. I really thank you for all your comments here and it may seem small to you, but it is really huge to others. Keep up your good work. Only one is broken before he can help others. Sorry you were there but you helped so many souls.
Forgive me in saying this but it really comes to my mind \"your salvation is at hand! Well done my Faithful and Beloved servant!\"
You have helped many here in the DS community and in real life. You do good work for others. Thank you for all you do for others.
THO YOU HAVE SUFFERED MUCH PEEWEE, YOU HAVE VERSATILITY IN MORE WAYS THAN ANYONE ELSE I KNOW. YOU HAVE BEEN SUCH A HELP TO ME AND MANY HERE ON DS. YOU HAVE LAID OUT YOUR LIFE BEFORE US AND TO ME THIS IS VERY COMFORTING. I KNOW THAT YOU DO NOT STAND IN JUDGEMENT OF ME BUT IN CHRISTS PRECIOUS LOVE THERE IS NOTHING I CAN\'T COME TO YOU WITH. I AM VERY BLESSED THAT GOD HAS PLACED YOU IN MY LIFE TO HELP ME WITH MY WALK IN CHRIST . THANK YOU FOR EVERYTHING , MUCH LOVE, CONNIE
Thank you all for your wonderful comments. I appreciate them and I take then to heart. To be a blessing to others is my goal in life, to touch a heart, to calm a storm, to ease a hurt and, to lift up the fallen.
Don\'t be so hard on yourself, OB, you\'re not Superman... or are you? :) I haven\'t known you long, but already appreciate you. C.S. Lewis quote for you:
\"To love at all is to be vulnerable. Love anything, and your heart will certainly be wrung and possibly broken. If you want to make sure of keeping it intact, you must give your heart to no one, not even to an animal. Wrap it carefully round with hobbies and little luxuries; avoid all entanglements; lock it up safe in the casket or coffin of your selfishness. But in that casket- safe, dark, motionless, airless--it will change. It will not be broken; it will become unbreakable, impenetrable, irredeemable.\"
THANK YOU PEE WEE FOR ALL YOU DO IN REACHING OUT TO ALL OF US ON DS AND REACHING OUT TO PEOPLE IN GENERAL. THANK YOU FOR BEING SUCH A GOOD MINISTER ON DS--IT\'S PASTOR\'S APPRECIATION MONTH. YOU ARE APPRECIATED VERY MUCH. YOU ARE IN MY PRAYERS. TAKE CARE & GOD BLESS YOU ALWAYS. VERY TRULY YOUR FRIEND IN CHRIST, CAROL
WOW PEEWEE...YOU HAVE BEEN THRU SO MUCH. THANK YOU FOR SHARING EVERYTHING WITH US. YOU HONESTLY HAVE NO IDEA HOW MUCH YOU TRULY HELP AND GUIDE SO MANY OF US. I KNOW YOU DO FOR ME ANYWAY. YOU ARE SO SPECIAL AND SO PRICELESS. PLEASE KNOW HOW SO VERY SPECIAL YOU ARE AND YOU DO HONESTLY HELP SO MANY.
GOD BLESS YOU ALWAYS PEEWEE....YOU ARE SUCH A GOD SEND TO ME.....JULIE