Me, just being Me--to all that Know me here on DS

I guess one of the things that bother me most here on DS is that I want to help everyone I can and I often feel so inadequate to do so.  I have been divorced so, I can relate to Breakups and Divorce.  I have been addicted to drugs and alcohol so I can deal with those. I have had my house burn down, lose everything so, I can relate to that.  I have had a nervous breakdown and fought depression so I can deal with those.  I have lost loved ones to disease, suicide and also lost my son in 2005 in a car wreck so, I can relate to bereavement.  I have been stabbed, beat up, busted up, broken bones, have a bullet hole in my leg, been in Biker gangs, lost my job of 20 years due to plant closure. Been rejected, slandered, lied about, lied to, deceived and hurt many times.  I have had numerous broken bones, shot at by Police, many physical scars on my body, my brother-in-law was murdered, and in the past 10 years, I have had 3 sisters, 2 brothers, my mother and my son die so, I know sadness too.
Through all of this, I have been a survivor and I want to be the friend to others that I never had, years ago.  I still feel I should try to do more, to help others.  I reach out to many and there are times when my intentions are taken wrong.   In the 4 years I have been here, I have never purposely tried to hurt or harm anyone.  I reach out in love because there have been times in my life when I never felt anyone loved me or, cared about me.
When someone you love, does not love you, it hurts.  When you do all you know to do and they still reject you, it makes you feel worthless and lonely inside. I have been there too. 
This is why I reach out to others and I know I am older than most of those who post here.  I am in the autumn years but, hopefully I can still be productive in helping someone here on DS and in the everyday walk in life and if I can, it is worth it all and my life has not been in vain.