Maybe more journaling will help

I am trying everything I can think of to deal with this anxiety about the hoidays, and also just general feelings of aloneness.
And I am in a crisis spiritually.  I obsess about religion and all the things about it I disagree with.  My mind is never at peace.  The only thing I look forwar to every day is going to sleep so I can escape the insanity for a few hours.  Will this ever end? Will I ever get better?  
I need help.