May 24th,2008-Dads 92nd birthday-Brads drinking

Brad came home last night from work and he was drunk as usual.He started to drink again and I am scared because this time it means jail for one year.He has been very very moody and I do not know what it wrong.All he has been doing in screaming and I just cannot take this anymore.I do not love Brad anymore.Far from it.But I am not in a good postion to leave him and he knows it.I will never again get involved with anyone who has got a drinking problem.He has been sober for 5 years and i do not know what has started this time.He does not talk to me and I have come to the conclusion he is either bored or it is something else.I tried to read his e mails but I cannot get into his computer.I have got a right to know.The lease is til August.I do not know what to do about then,but i am going to have a good time and do the things that I have planned for the past two months.Guys-please do me a favor-if you do not like to talk please do me a favor and do not get involved with me because this silent treament is childish and very immature.If you had an unhappy love affair..please get over it.No woman is worth it.And if you have little children-please stay away.I do not have children and never will.I made my decision in the late 1970s and I have not regretted it. I ha ve never wanted children and wanted to do certain things.And I am sorry guys..but a child changed everything and I have seen it especially with her and I refuse to change what I always do.And if you are a grandparent,please also do me a favor--please do not bother me.I am not interested.Grandparents in seattle have become second parents and I have got no intention of raising children at 60.I have worked all of my life and this is my time.So please do not call me selfish.The person who thinks that a person can spend all of their lives in the home and raising children is.No Kids!