May 22, 2010

Things have gotten way out of control in my last journal.   Why can't I just vent in my journal without reprocussions.  I just need a few days to regroup.  Will there be forgiveness - possibly.  I am still standing behind what I have said.  The person needs to give me some leg room so I can evaluate the situation at hand.  I am not upset about it anymore because its over and done.  Shit happens.  None of us are perfect in this world and neither are they.  Do I have to ask the what, who, where, and why's?  Maybe my communication level needs some sharpening.  Who isn't great at it (why else are we on this site!). Did I have to be a "mind reader" as to know this person needed some help with something?   I wanted to be able to get on this site, meet some great friends and feel comfortable talking to them.  Not by being pressured that the conversation wasn't going the way the other wants it.  Conversations should be natural and flow easily.  whether we talk about the weather, shows, music, life.....anything....Conversations should be meaningful.  Chat rooms are very a very difficult way of communicating.  Its often hard to type and think about what you want to say.  Conversations go more freely on the phone or in person.  I know I should have asked more questions but what kind of questions should I have asked without knowing what the problem or situation was? I don't know.  I am so sick and tired of dealing with this and it really needs to be dropped.  I will contact this person when I am ready to talk about it.  Until then, I don't want to hear about it.