May 2025

Well May is here and it feels like the days, months and the years are speeding much faster that I am unable to enjoy the days that I have. There still hasn't been a month go by that doesn't have me going backwards in my progress. I didn't get chosen for the banny agency and of course it was a waist of time going to an audition for Strike a pose, as I feel that Adel is correct that they only pick certain people all the time. It is depressing that I wasn't picked but it is their loss. But a door did open up for me about for preview models doing a red carpet show in October in Beverly Hills Cal. but I have to come up with 3200 dollar just to get started I have it on my credit cards but using that  amount would kill my score and I am trying to get my house in the process.  How to choose when you want to have both and you know that you can't have both at the same time and the desion is difficult, I just hope that I can make the right choice. As for Arby's and Walmart, Arby's is getting worse and I am tired of the aggravation about times in drive through, always nagging.

I have gone through my finances only to realize that getting a home is my top priority. It I disappointing that I am unable to go for it as I feel that it will be worth paying that amount of money but if I didn't have to take a loan out for the car that a mechanic screwed up my oil pan I would have the funds to do it. I think I am making the right choice. soon I will have chase paid off and my platinum card as well. it should boost my credit score up.  but time will tell. I am almost at the end of May and I had to make some tough choices as I was chosen to be part of Preview Models that would have excelled my career more by participating in a red carpet show in Beverly Hills California but I had to turn it down because I needed to purchase my house which is a slow process in its self. It would have been Kool, if I had taken it I would be surrounded by celebrities along with other people that would help me move up in my career but the house is more important. I did manage to get on set as a background person on the show Dexter resurrection it was awesome and my car was in it which saved me a parking fee's, but it got more publicity as they did the shots in front of my car so my red Chevy Trax in the show more than me lol. So far from what I know for June is that I have to get evaluated from the other people's insurance company about the lawsuit that is still in progress since 2 years ago. No new offers were established. May has brought me into the mini series of Dexter's Resurrection. Which was me and my car but it would seem that the car got more publicity than me but they paid for the car to be in the shoot. but that was the last thing in the month. I tried my best to see my kids by finding out if she was going to have a Barbeque, even though it was worth a shot I was told they weren't doing anything as another holiday goes by without being around my family. I am pretty sure that they had something. How much longer can I hold up without seeing my boys. I miss them but I guess they don't miss me. June is almost here.