May 2019

It's the month of my husband death.  Doesn't help the fact that I am bored and lonely most of the time.  So already feeling the sadness that the 21st bring to me.  Been sleeping a lot.  Since my brother has a aide I don't need to go over there as much.  Which is fine with me.  He is smoking once again and hate that smell.  Even tho he does not smoke while I am there it still gets on me.  

Everyone wants warmer weather now.  It's been so rainy and damp and chilly.  I keep telling myself April showers bring May flowers but now it's May so I wish it would let up.

My relationship with Bert is not want I wanted.  He lives to far away to really date.  I need someone to do things with.  I can go without someone but it's more fun with someone.  Since my sister got married we don't do much together any more.  We were going out to see Scott on Sats when he was in the nursing home but now that he's home I hardly  see her.  But that's how it is with family.  

So I am home a lot more.  Trying to sort through stuff to get rid of it.  Or I clean.  Today it was this computer desk.  Looks good but it won't stay this way.  I tend to make to many notes and then don't use what I wrote.  Need to stop that.  lol

Another e mail, gotta go!