Max out the sad card
Here I am just 50 footsteps from you. (Yes 50 footsteps more or less). Do you have any idea how heartbreaking is for me to see your stupid car every single day?, and what's worse how awful I feel when I don't see it there at all. It makes me wonder where you are and if you are all right.
It was a surprise to see your car here today, that means you're home and that you didn't go to work. Are you sick? Did they give you a day off? There's so many possibilities. I was hoping you were not here when I came back from the gym, but you were... Of course.
If I didn't love myself I woud toss away every last piece of dignity I have left and I would walk up to your house like I used to in those happy days.
I feel so stupid knowing that we are at the same distance and I'm the only one who was capable of taking those steps.
I also wish I wasn't so unrealistic to fantasise about you knocking on my door and say that you're sorry and that you would like to start over.
I would really really reaaaaaally like to start all over. I care about you dumb*ss, can't you tell? If only we could be friends... I don't know. Maybe someday, or not.
I'm listening to that song you recommended and it hurts like a b*tch. I'm trying to max out my sad card, hoping that math laws apply to a broken sad heart, (negative * negative = positive), It's not helping much though.
There's no use in me listening to this but it's such a beautiful song, "Give me your heart, let me in that place where flowers grow, where love is born. Give me your broken lips, I want to kiss them, I want to heal them, I will take care of them with all my love..." On the bright side I don't feel like crying, so I guess that's good. And now I feel angry because you ruined a perfect song.
If anyone cares to know the song is in spanish it's called "Labios rotos" (broken lips) by Zoé.
It was a surprise to see your car here today, that means you're home and that you didn't go to work. Are you sick? Did they give you a day off? There's so many possibilities. I was hoping you were not here when I came back from the gym, but you were... Of course.
If I didn't love myself I woud toss away every last piece of dignity I have left and I would walk up to your house like I used to in those happy days.
I feel so stupid knowing that we are at the same distance and I'm the only one who was capable of taking those steps.
I also wish I wasn't so unrealistic to fantasise about you knocking on my door and say that you're sorry and that you would like to start over.
I would really really reaaaaaally like to start all over. I care about you dumb*ss, can't you tell? If only we could be friends... I don't know. Maybe someday, or not.
I'm listening to that song you recommended and it hurts like a b*tch. I'm trying to max out my sad card, hoping that math laws apply to a broken sad heart, (negative * negative = positive), It's not helping much though.
There's no use in me listening to this but it's such a beautiful song, "Give me your heart, let me in that place where flowers grow, where love is born. Give me your broken lips, I want to kiss them, I want to heal them, I will take care of them with all my love..." On the bright side I don't feel like crying, so I guess that's good. And now I feel angry because you ruined a perfect song.
If anyone cares to know the song is in spanish it's called "Labios rotos" (broken lips) by Zoé.
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lovely, once again. My ex lives fairly close to me so that is my biggest fear, seeing his truck or him. I\'ve learned to not look down his street, it helps. I know what you mean about ruining the perfect song. When he first left me that song \"All of Me\" was popular, still is as I hear it on a daily basis, grrrrr. I love that song except when I think about us, sigh.
You are young, you have a wonderful life ahead of you, this is just a small bump along the way. Take care!
Thank you so much, when I read your reply I could only think of \"Thinking out loud\" and how every single station plays it non-stop, love songs really suck when you\'re trying to not think about it at all. My situation is kind of tricky tho, I really have to walk in front of his house every single day in order to get out of mine. Sometimes it\'s fine but some other times it\'s just devastating.
Infinite thanks for your support and kind words. Take care as well