maturing

i'm really feeling good about myself.  i think i've let people take advantage of me.  i know because of the abuse it broke me.  now that i am aware, i am doing something about it finally.  i don't let people bother me as much.  i don't give arrogant people my time anymore.  i ignore those type of people now.  eventually they try to speak to me.  i'm not trying to be arrogant myself, but trying to please everyone, especially the arrogant ones, will drain you.  i have to draw the line the somewhere.  i believe most people will feed on your fears.  i wanted to say kindness.  i'm realizing that my "too kindness" was actually a fear that people would not like me. i want to quit one of my jobs.  i've been with them too long.  i feel stuck.  they have been good to me, but i'm growing/maturing and i need to leave.  it would be healthy for me, personally.  i'm leaving a good time, i'm pleased with them and myself, and i think they are pleased with me.  it's the right time.  i will miss the extra money.  i can teach yoga now.  i want to teach yoga now, atleast twice a week.  that will replace the job i want to leave.  i sub a lot of yoga classes.  i now i don't have a class of my own because i'm afraid to take that step.  i have to face my fears.  i know i am a good yoga teacher. i am going to miss most of the people i worked with, but i could always stop by to say hi.  the abuse has made me clingy.  it was only a job, not a career.  it did not pay much, but it was fun at times.  i can do better.