march 4th,,,2010----------------------------------------------

I finally made it March.I paid the rent.I dont have any more funds left and i am running out of options.I miss Brad and i dont know why he did this to me.I feel naked and I feel alone and I feel like I am going to explode.No one knows what I have been through.I feel horrible.I feel like the end of the world is near and that there is noone around that I can talk to.People do not talk in seattle.They are always on their cell phones.When they are not on their cell phones.....they tend to ignore you.And this loneliness is driving me crazy.Today I cried.And I am crying now.Brad...how could you? And nooone will ever know the unhappiness in my heart because I lost 3 loves of my mine and they can and will never be replaced.