March

March has finaly ended only to have things in my life falling apart that I do not know which end is up. With the accident that occured against me it has abrubted my progress. I keep thinking to myself to keep my wits about me only to get stopped everyday that i try to keep moving. On top of everthing else the virus that has gone rapid making other's sick with a grim hope of survival. I just happened to fall into the catagory of high risk, the first time in my life that i have to be cautious when i am around other's. but it does not help me with my anxiety that sometimes flare up. i'm the type of person that needs to venture out but thank goodness i have a computer that can pass the time away but it doesn't help me with my progress. Everything i was working on has come to a complete halt. Clinic appointments to keep track of my progress, my credit score has been doing ok for the most part. I managed to get a lot of things done like my credit report, consolidating my student loans, putting them into good standing and still working on the stubborn items such as Verizon claimming to say that i owe them for a bill, trying to dispute it is like going through red tape. talking to arrougant people i might say, i did mange to get approved for some credit cards i just have to make sure i have the money before charging on the card, it did increase my score but having my daughter paying off the car brought it down some. 

As for my transitioning the doctor reduced my estradiol down to 2mg instead of the minimal 4mgs it was stated to me that it a safety percaution due to because of my accident thinking that i am not moving around that i am just laying around like a couch potatoe, i hope that Dr. Pri will allow me to go back to 4mg a day i hope, one good thing that has come out from this is that i managed to get my letter stating that i have complied to all of the proto calls to allow me to further my transition like changing my name, looking for breast implants and most of all bottom surgery to pronounce my body to my true nature of being a woman not having my male parts anymore. it makes me happy that i can further my transition but with this deadly virus that rampaging around the world place everything on hold, with hopes that i do not get the virus myself. I hope that i do not and also my family as well. I do have to admit i worry about them very much in hopes that they are being safe themselves as my family has comprimised immune system that could make them very sick. i Pray for them to be safe. what will the next comming months prevail. i am affraid to find out. I am getting depressed as the days slip by hearing more cases of people getting the virus and dieing. Thanks to a country that where it started from. I am trying everyday to keep my wits together. everyday i worry about my wife and kids i still care about them and i will never stop caring about them, I hope we can get through this crises so our lives can get back to some normalcy. Unitil the next time unless something major comes up.