March 12, 2008

 I have not been on in a couple of days. I have been trying to do some soul searching. did not get much accomplished in that area. I get in these moods sometimes that I am an annoyance to everyone. I hide in my house and I won't even call my sister because I think she is tired of hearing from me too. She always tells me no, but she is my sister, she is supposed to say that. I have also been going through a little bit of depression. All these people who say that if I ever need anything to call, or that they care. Well, where are they? I have felt this way long before hubby got sick, the only time I would ever hear from someone is when they wanted a haircut. It just makes me mad. I put myself in a shell and have a great big pity party for myself. Am I one of those people who no-one wants to be around. I feel like that Big fat aunt on all the tv shows that all the kids are afraid to hug, only their parents make them and then they are scarred for life. I don't mean to go on like this, but if I don't let it out it will just stay inside and eat at me until I explode.  OK enough of my pity party, hubby is doing much better. He has been getting up different times during the day and stretching without me having to remind him. He has been getting up in the morning for breakfast and staying up until after dinner. He does not take breaks while walking through the house anymore. I am still concerned about giving him too much to eat or drink. I have this problem that I can't tell him no. If he is still hungry and wants something else, I go and get it for him. I know that I should tell him no sometimes, but at least he is asking for more vegetables and not more sweet things or carbs.   Thought for the day......Sometimes you just need a hug.