Even though I took my mother on a casino junket, I was able to stay in pretty much control, I'm not naive enough to think I can stay in control, but I can honestly say I would not mind if I every saw another casino again. I refused to spend my money and so my mother insisted on giving me money so I would accompany her. I said fine but I didn't spend my own, I actually was bored and wanted desperated to do something else but it was raining and the pool was closed the whole three days. I won't lie, I did think about gambling online, that is my demon to fight now. I'm starting to believe that quitting is possible for me now, I'm looking at life differently thanks to some inspirational meditations that I've been listening too and reading. I hope to God that this keeps working, I get scared though that something will throw me off track. I started only leaving a small amount in my checking accounts, and keeping my savings in cash so I can't access it online. That seems to be helping alot, if I slip I can't do much damage financially anyway. My mom got sick of giving me money to gamble with (I never asked, she volunteered it)(misery loves company and all that) I'm hoping she will not want to go if she has to finance my gambling, I think it will work.