Making Plans
Today I spent a good chunk of time setting up my plans for next week. I'm going to my sisters for dinner tomorrow, right now I have Monday free, going out with my friend Jimmy on Tuesday, have Wednesday free, Thursday with my friend Julio and Friday and Saturday with my Nana. I'm going to have a busy week, and it's going to be fun. I don't know when I'm going to get to hang out with my friends Vanessa and Heather, but I also have a couple more weeks here where I can hang out with them. I'm trying to get all my friends in this next week so I can see them again next week. At least that's my hope, that I can see them more than once in the time that I'm here. I was supposed to go to some art galleries tonight with my sister, but my brother didn't pick up his phone (he was supposed to join us and drive me there) and my sister was tired so she canceled. Plus, it's really cold outside. I'm in bed with the covers pulled up and just my arms free to type. My fingers are cold, but not too cold yet. I sit on them when they get too cold so my butt can warm them up.
I need to get back on track with my diet. I've been eating way over my calorie range and super high levels of fat daily. It's just that all the food here is so fattening.... today I had chorizo and eggs for breakfast, and eggs are high in fat. Well, they are if you eat 3 of them. The chorizo wasn't too bad, it was just yummy. I think I'm going to have it again tomorrow for breakfast just with less eggs. I had high fat soup for lunch (loaded baked potato soup) and it wasn't even all that great. I don't know what I'm going to have for dinner, since my stepdad is making hamburgers and that doesn't fit in my diet today. I might have some tomato soup with a bit of ground beef in it, or some mac and cheese. Well, I don't know if mac and cheese fits into my diet, I have to look at the fat content. I know you can make it lower fat with less milk and butter. I just want something warm since it's so cold outside. The weather widget I have says it's 62 outside, but I think it's colder than that.
I better be careful... I'm eating 1,000 more calories a day now than I was at home. I've gained 3 pounds already. Some of it has to be water weight, but the last thing I want to do is come home and have gained 10 pounds that I have to lose again. I was supposed to go for a walk today as well, but I stayed in. I've been in bed most of the day, except when we went to my brother's house to drop off some mail and see if he was there. He wasn't, so I just went back to my stepdad's and hung out here. I have to try and see about tomorrow what I'm going to do for exercise... I'm going to the movies in the morning and then I have dinner with my sister. I have some time between, but I don't know what I'm going to be doing then. It's hard to keep up with all this fitness stuff when you are on vacation. I would go for my walk now but it's so cold outside!
Mood today was good... I woke up around 9am, and then made myself breakfast at 10. I ate, and then I lay back down and napped until noon. My sleep is still a bit spotty, but I've been taking klonopin to help me get through the rough spots. I felt a bit anxious today going over my brothers, since I didn't know if he was going to be expecting me or not, but he wasn't there, so that problem was solved. I just wish he would pick up his phone so we could talk about tomorrow. It's not that big of a deal, since I'm going to be seeing him in the morning, but I still wish I could confirm. It would just make me rest easier tonight. I get to see my little brother tomorrow, and that means a lot to me. I don't get to see him often, and I haven't been in his life a lot since my dad died, and that's a long time (15 years). He's all gone and grown up and I wasn't there for it. I feel bad, and so when I get a chance to see him, it means a lot to me.
Food today like I said above was bad.... I'm going to try and make up for it with a good dinner, but I can't have everything I want, like feta cheese and avocado in my salad. I know I'm going to try for a low fat soup and salad, maybe with some veggies on the side. I'm all for hot and cooked things right now, but my stepdad makes the best salads, so I enjoy those as well. Sleep last night was good... I only woke up a couple times, and stress today was moderate. I already talked about how I was stressed with the thing with my brother. So far it's been a great vacation!
I need to get back on track with my diet. I've been eating way over my calorie range and super high levels of fat daily. It's just that all the food here is so fattening.... today I had chorizo and eggs for breakfast, and eggs are high in fat. Well, they are if you eat 3 of them. The chorizo wasn't too bad, it was just yummy. I think I'm going to have it again tomorrow for breakfast just with less eggs. I had high fat soup for lunch (loaded baked potato soup) and it wasn't even all that great. I don't know what I'm going to have for dinner, since my stepdad is making hamburgers and that doesn't fit in my diet today. I might have some tomato soup with a bit of ground beef in it, or some mac and cheese. Well, I don't know if mac and cheese fits into my diet, I have to look at the fat content. I know you can make it lower fat with less milk and butter. I just want something warm since it's so cold outside. The weather widget I have says it's 62 outside, but I think it's colder than that.
I better be careful... I'm eating 1,000 more calories a day now than I was at home. I've gained 3 pounds already. Some of it has to be water weight, but the last thing I want to do is come home and have gained 10 pounds that I have to lose again. I was supposed to go for a walk today as well, but I stayed in. I've been in bed most of the day, except when we went to my brother's house to drop off some mail and see if he was there. He wasn't, so I just went back to my stepdad's and hung out here. I have to try and see about tomorrow what I'm going to do for exercise... I'm going to the movies in the morning and then I have dinner with my sister. I have some time between, but I don't know what I'm going to be doing then. It's hard to keep up with all this fitness stuff when you are on vacation. I would go for my walk now but it's so cold outside!
Mood today was good... I woke up around 9am, and then made myself breakfast at 10. I ate, and then I lay back down and napped until noon. My sleep is still a bit spotty, but I've been taking klonopin to help me get through the rough spots. I felt a bit anxious today going over my brothers, since I didn't know if he was going to be expecting me or not, but he wasn't there, so that problem was solved. I just wish he would pick up his phone so we could talk about tomorrow. It's not that big of a deal, since I'm going to be seeing him in the morning, but I still wish I could confirm. It would just make me rest easier tonight. I get to see my little brother tomorrow, and that means a lot to me. I don't get to see him often, and I haven't been in his life a lot since my dad died, and that's a long time (15 years). He's all gone and grown up and I wasn't there for it. I feel bad, and so when I get a chance to see him, it means a lot to me.
Food today like I said above was bad.... I'm going to try and make up for it with a good dinner, but I can't have everything I want, like feta cheese and avocado in my salad. I know I'm going to try for a low fat soup and salad, maybe with some veggies on the side. I'm all for hot and cooked things right now, but my stepdad makes the best salads, so I enjoy those as well. Sleep last night was good... I only woke up a couple times, and stress today was moderate. I already talked about how I was stressed with the thing with my brother. So far it's been a great vacation!
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