makin process!!

last night i slept in a bed , it's been so long since i did this without freakin out. I decided tht i am not goin to let my past control my future. i want to do normal things like sleep in a bed and i even ordered a new bed and platform frame!! and i am movin pass not wantin knifes in the house.. i was talkin with my new bf and he said to me this is in the past and it made me realize i and only i have the control to move past all that crap tht happened. i have two choices here i can move forward or let him control me longer and i am in control of my life now!!!!