Makin' me crazy
I seem to write in my journal only when I am flustered. At least I have a way to vent. Love it!!!
My dad is "Makin' me Kraqzy".....He is 92 and not exactly a clean or normal kinda guy. He has been having awful issue's with dry scalp. He keeps purring vinigar on his head and claiming to have "Bugs". There is no way in the world that I would let my dad go around with bugs in his hair. But, he refuses to stop pouring vinigar on his scalp or understand that it is just dry skin. I have had the dr. tell him 3 times that it is dry skin. She told him to use almond oil...not vinigar. She also told him 3 times that he does not have bugs. Now I know my dad is old, 92, and not in his right mind. But he understands most things. I feel like he is just being nasty about this. He's got to know I wouldn't let that happen but he will argue and yell at me over it. It's just plain crazy and stupid!!! And I don't think I can put up with this crazy crap anymore. I need to get away from him. I really need for him to go to the home, so that I can keep my sanity, but I can't ask him to do that. I really feel lke taking care of my dad and my lazy, ungrateful som is wasting my life. The days and years go by and it's just the same bull over and over again. Dad and his bugs and my son sleeping till noon. What am I suppose to do? I just keep paying for it and cleaning up after them. The worst part is that I am becoming very bitter. I am either crying or angry all the time. I can't afford to go anywhere or do anything. And I can't leave for a couple of days because my dog is very ill.... This just sucks. The old man has gotten to where he yells at me now. Well, damn. We never got alon g. I should have never moved in here. I moved in to take care of him, he won't let me. He won't listen to anything I say and treats me like I'm an idiot. I'm a trained medical assistant, the mother of three and a dog groomer...I think I can tell if you have "bugs" or not. And if he did, I could and would get rid of them.
Sometimes I just get so-o sick of people in general. I suppose that is natural when your home life is hellish. I would very much like to live by myself for a whild. Just me and 1 dog. I need some time for myself. A life for myself. Time to find myself. I don't want to waste anymore years before I do that. My father and son are wasting my life and I am ticked off about it!!!!!
My dad is "Makin' me Kraqzy".....He is 92 and not exactly a clean or normal kinda guy. He has been having awful issue's with dry scalp. He keeps purring vinigar on his head and claiming to have "Bugs". There is no way in the world that I would let my dad go around with bugs in his hair. But, he refuses to stop pouring vinigar on his scalp or understand that it is just dry skin. I have had the dr. tell him 3 times that it is dry skin. She told him to use almond oil...not vinigar. She also told him 3 times that he does not have bugs. Now I know my dad is old, 92, and not in his right mind. But he understands most things. I feel like he is just being nasty about this. He's got to know I wouldn't let that happen but he will argue and yell at me over it. It's just plain crazy and stupid!!! And I don't think I can put up with this crazy crap anymore. I need to get away from him. I really need for him to go to the home, so that I can keep my sanity, but I can't ask him to do that. I really feel lke taking care of my dad and my lazy, ungrateful som is wasting my life. The days and years go by and it's just the same bull over and over again. Dad and his bugs and my son sleeping till noon. What am I suppose to do? I just keep paying for it and cleaning up after them. The worst part is that I am becoming very bitter. I am either crying or angry all the time. I can't afford to go anywhere or do anything. And I can't leave for a couple of days because my dog is very ill.... This just sucks. The old man has gotten to where he yells at me now. Well, damn. We never got alon g. I should have never moved in here. I moved in to take care of him, he won't let me. He won't listen to anything I say and treats me like I'm an idiot. I'm a trained medical assistant, the mother of three and a dog groomer...I think I can tell if you have "bugs" or not. And if he did, I could and would get rid of them.
Sometimes I just get so-o sick of people in general. I suppose that is natural when your home life is hellish. I would very much like to live by myself for a whild. Just me and 1 dog. I need some time for myself. A life for myself. Time to find myself. I don't want to waste anymore years before I do that. My father and son are wasting my life and I am ticked off about it!!!!!
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That is what journaling is all about, putting your thoughts and emotions down. It always seems to help me. Take time for yourself, you DESERVE it!!!
I saw that you were having ensomnia...me too. I hope you\'re doing better. That stress really mess \' with you.
Thanks for your support.