make or Break

hope this inspires medo i have the resolve to stay a member on DC? and ignore TEMX?fuckit why did he have to snatch me and chomp medidnt expect a maneater would be cruising the reef...guess I shld be grateful he spat me out.could be worse...could be awaiting the imminent arrival of some hideous crossbetween Quasimodo and hannibal Lecter.did I really want someone underfoot 24/7/52?probably not....and if it was truly fated love, he wld have proactively got back to me by nowthe passive aggression doesnt have a whole lot of good going for it. I want to stay a member cos I wonder if Kris 51 is right about the AA convention...will work on my DS contacts today.Because if eg Winged Wolf is as nice as she sounds I'd love to spend some time meeting her.Joining up the dots.a friend in every state?sleep each night out under the stars.got to get strong enough to cope with eg LAX by myself.As long as I have enough money to travel.wldnt hitch need to investigate these plans.and yes maybe if X is still banged up in the Big House with Ms F ill just see about those beavers, where the whole dam fantasy got outta hand.well i love beavers, so I guess the Beaver State is the place to look for them.maybe I could sleep in their lodge...joke.I need an adventure to plan for that isn't sex/love oriented.had my fair share....will hold out for Mr Perfect for me....kissed a lot of frogs as they say.will go to the wharf for today's sunrise....or if not always tomorrowtoday I will be kind to myself with all my idiocies I will always love me-->except when depressed when Im the world's worst Cunt.c'est ma vie.