magnified
been a rough couple of days........ been missing Brandon extra these days....... I suppose that is natural.........for it to come in waves ..........well this one is like a Tsunami!
I did finally have a dream of him tho.......... he was his younger self, about 10 or so. He snuck out of his bed to come in an snuggle in mine............... which on occasion I let him do. We would lay in bed and share our 'daydreams' of things we wanted to do, where we wanted to go, and what we wanted to be when we grew up.... .......and then he would fall asleep................ but this time was different............after we fell asleep..........we FLEW! I swear it felt so real................. floating around looking at all the beautiful things together........... I didn't want to wake up....... Until our next travel date Brandon.......I love you!
A classmate committed suicide on Monday............ I feel so bad for anyone that feels that is the only option.... I feel for his family, I feel for his friends, I feel for his coworkers, I feel especially for his mother. The grief that she will have to endure.......
maybe this is why things seem so magnified.......... I don't know........
Kitty is doing good.............still a stinker......... but I love him, quirks and all.
I pray that our East Coasters are all safe...............
Peace,
Lisa
I did finally have a dream of him tho.......... he was his younger self, about 10 or so. He snuck out of his bed to come in an snuggle in mine............... which on occasion I let him do. We would lay in bed and share our 'daydreams' of things we wanted to do, where we wanted to go, and what we wanted to be when we grew up.... .......and then he would fall asleep................ but this time was different............after we fell asleep..........we FLEW! I swear it felt so real................. floating around looking at all the beautiful things together........... I didn't want to wake up....... Until our next travel date Brandon.......I love you!
A classmate committed suicide on Monday............ I feel so bad for anyone that feels that is the only option.... I feel for his family, I feel for his friends, I feel for his coworkers, I feel especially for his mother. The grief that she will have to endure.......
maybe this is why things seem so magnified.......... I don't know........
Kitty is doing good.............still a stinker......... but I love him, quirks and all.
I pray that our East Coasters are all safe...............
Peace,
Lisa
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Those dreams are a lifeline..I yearn for another lately. Bask in it. Lauri
What a lovely dream!
Such a great dream. Enjoy the love that comes with this connection. Hoping that the classmate\'s family and friends find some peace. Hugs, Kathy
READING YOUR JOURNAL MAKES ME CRY. IT WAS SO SWET. YOUR SON MUST HAVE JUST BEEN A SWEET LITTLE LITTLE GUY AND YOU LOVED HIM SO MUCH. I USED TO SLEEP WITH MY DAUGHTER AND I WOULD TICKLE HER WE WOULD LAUGH GOD I WISH WE COULD DO THAT RIGHT NOW. BLESS YOUR SPECIAL LITTLE ANGEL BRANDON. I,AM SO SORRY ABOUT YOUR CLASS MATE. SUICIDE A PERSON HAS GIVEN UP TOTALLY AND JUST CAN,T STAND TO BE ON EARTH ONE MORE DAY. SO SAD. BIG HUGS AND LOVE MARY ANN
What an AMAZING dream! YOU did travel, I have no doubt. SO incredible and lovely to imagine this.
So sorry about your classmate...
Heartfelt (((hugs)))
XO Joanie
Hi Lisa
What an incredible dream!!! Oh how we miss our children. Lisa would have me rub her back and chat - she would get drowsy and fall asleep (I guess I was boring LOL)
It is always heartbreaking when someone takes their own life. It is a tragedy for the family. It is so sad when people see no other way to ease the pain.
Wishing you many more flights with Brandon!
Tight hugs,
Marlene
Awesome dream.....and to fly together.....sounds beautiful!
So sorry about the classmate....that\'s so tragic. Most likely having an effect on your mood causing you to have especially rough days. Seems our emotions are so fragile that we tend to feel things so much more strongly after our own loss.
I hope things level out for you & become a bit more gentle.
Hugs of understanding....Vicki
I envy people who remember dreams, although it makes me smile to picture one of our moms having a delightful dream with their angel child. I am sure it was wonderful to be with him while flying!
I am always sad to hear another child has been taken from their families. I think it is so much harder to hear about another one. I am sure it impacted you. Just let it happen. I never could hold the tears and longings... for whatever reason.
So sad, to hear of another child suicide!! Prayers going up, for the family and friends, who are left behind.
Your dream reminds me of a scene in the Peter Pan movie, where they all fly out the window. It must have felt so great, to be flying with your child!!
(((HUGS)))...Julia
What an amazing visit from your son. They are truly so special...often leave a different hole in the heart...but if you are like me you will take every visit no matter how it adds to the ache.
Our lives are a roller coaster ride for sure. In the early days the ups and downs are more violent...so many things to process. So many things to miss...to ache for...in time in will change. I am not saying it goes away...but you find ways to live and have happiness again. One foot in front of the other...and keep writing. I have 7 1/2 years of journals here...and writing truly helped me...a way to release those emotions...love and gentle hugs...Karen