made it thru the day.

I did not use any meth today.  I am still very depressed and unsure of what is come.  Today I have been out of the state hospital for 6 months.  I just moved in to my own apartment on may 1.  I am scared to death here.  I have been doing meth so that I won't go to sleep becuase I think someone will come in and try to hurt me.  I am going to try and go to sleep tonight I have been awake so many day I should sleep thru the night. I just can't get used to the outside world befor I was in the hospital I was in prison for 4 years.  This is the first time I have ever lived alone.  and I don't like it.