mad that i didnt go

im so mad that i didnt go tonight.  my bible study was tonight and i didnt go and i really wanted to but i was to nervis to go cuz of how i look and i thought i didnt feel good. im so mad that i didnt make myself go.  i wish i would have gone. and i know that i missed out on alot of fun stuff tonight.  :(    so mad at myself right now!