Mad Haikus

Do not drive me to be a nurse--
or teach the wants of school;
I'm still myself...
***
I'm old
because I've endured
and learned
to be expendable
in their shadows.
...Winning can be sad.
***
The breath of your absence
is quite unequal
to the holding of my own
without you here...
***
Smile.
It is empty where I'm going
so you needn't worry
about what I'll find there
solo...
***
Sometime,
a sun will bloom
inside
when I can take a breathe
on my own
without owing.