Mad at myself
Work is still busy. And then computer problems on top of that don't help. Completed two estimates this week and can't settle them due to error messages, and issues. Waiting for the help desk to resolve the problems. Then, makes me concerned to work on any additional estimates for fear of losing my work.
I have just really let things go. I felt so great this weekend, getting the house all cleaned up. No help from David and Paul though which is a huge frustration. They act like I am the bad guy when I freak out of dirty socks in the middle of the living room, and shoes by the back door.
Eating at night is still my biggest challenge by far. I do well during the day and then binge at night. And yes, sometimes hiding it, which is scary! So between the lack of exercise and the overeating, my weight is creeping up again. Back up to 153 this AM! OMG! I just wanted to cry. I have to talk to myself. I went from 166 lbs to 143 lbs. So I can do it again. I also think that my biggest problem is not getting up and going to the Y first thing in the AM, before I do another thing. That is also a huge difference. now, with work and home stuff, I am finding it harder than ever getting exercise in. So going to try to go to bed on time tonight, set the alarm and get my butt out of bed tomorrow!
I have just really let things go. I felt so great this weekend, getting the house all cleaned up. No help from David and Paul though which is a huge frustration. They act like I am the bad guy when I freak out of dirty socks in the middle of the living room, and shoes by the back door.
Eating at night is still my biggest challenge by far. I do well during the day and then binge at night. And yes, sometimes hiding it, which is scary! So between the lack of exercise and the overeating, my weight is creeping up again. Back up to 153 this AM! OMG! I just wanted to cry. I have to talk to myself. I went from 166 lbs to 143 lbs. So I can do it again. I also think that my biggest problem is not getting up and going to the Y first thing in the AM, before I do another thing. That is also a huge difference. now, with work and home stuff, I am finding it harder than ever getting exercise in. So going to try to go to bed on time tonight, set the alarm and get my butt out of bed tomorrow!
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Wow...R U sure UR not me as far as .....oh, yes, as long as I\'m up already......
I can relate to the eating and hiding it....but I wonder who am I hiding from??? My hubby could care less what I eat! I am hiding from what? Very strange behavior!
Also can relate to the dirty socks! Hubby says he will help with dishes...DUH! When??? when it is convenient to him I guess! I don\'t think they appreciate or even know what we women do to keep their world running smoothly! Thanks for letting me vent in your journal!
I think when we hide and eat to hide from ourselves.
It\'s great that you logged what\'s happening in your journal now reread it and think about why you are doing it only at night. do you have any cravings?
are you really stressed? see what the pattern is telling you.
What type of foods are you eating at night?
I hope you can keep on track all day, and figure out why you are doing it.
have a great week.
Sometimes I think if there is stress at home it triggers bad eating. I got home yesterday (my first day back at work since the move) and my new house was a mess. Clearly hubby didn\'t doa thing toward straightening up, the kids didn\'t either, I worked late and just when I had them all working on a 15 minute family clean-up my EX showed up to pick up the girls (on time...he\'s never on time).
I wound up eating a cheese steak instead of my planned meal because it was late by the time I finished the chores...and because I felt stressed.
Hope the work stuff gets resolved and (they) find a way to streamline the system to make it more efficient. Maybe then your routine will stabilize!
Good luck!
Much Love!!!!!
Stay strong! I can relate, my tough times are all day thru work, it\'s awful! SO much candy and urgh! I also keep eating other things besides what I bring for lunch! So frustrating! I hide and eat food too.....I guess I really don\'t want people to know what I\'m eating and look at me and say, \"No wonder she\'s overweight\" Kick it in to high gear and stick with it!