Mad at myself

Work is still busy.  And then computer problems on top of that don't help.  Completed two estimates this week and can't settle them due to error messages, and issues.  Waiting for the help desk to resolve the problems.  Then, makes me concerned to work on any additional estimates for fear of losing my work. 
I have just really let things go.  I felt so great this weekend, getting the house all cleaned up.  No help from David and Paul though which is a huge frustration.  They act like I am the bad guy when I freak out of dirty socks in the middle of the living room, and shoes by the back door. 
Eating at night is still my biggest challenge by far.  I do well during the day and then binge at night.  And yes, sometimes hiding it, which is scary!  So between the lack of exercise and the overeating, my weight is creeping up again.  Back up to 153 this AM!  OMG!  I just wanted to cry.  I have to talk to myself.  I went from 166 lbs to 143 lbs.  So I can do it again.  I also think that my biggest problem is not getting up and going to the Y first thing in the AM, before I do another thing.  That is also a huge difference.  now, with work and home stuff, I am finding it harder than ever getting exercise in.  So going to try to go to bed on time tonight, set the alarm and get my butt out of bed tomorrow!