So this morning he went fishing. Which is good because we can totally use the food. But I'm a little pissed. I'm here everyday and every night. Always in this small apartment with the little one. While he goes out and works and whatever. But when I want to go have a girls night he either gets hurt or upset "you don't want to hang out with me". Whine, whine, whine. What the hell is that all about?!! Why is it that most men don't think about our feelings? And I'm not just talking BP's I think it's most men (no offense to my guys friends). I'm a person too, I need a break from the little one, I have wants and needs also!!!! I know, I know, you all are not mind readers and don't know if we don't tell you. I'm sorry, but that's just an excuse. Think about us sometimes, put yourself in OUR shoes and think, Wow, maybe she's cranky because she never gets out, maybe she's cranky because she needs some sort of break. Think about SOMETHING other than yourselves!!! I'm a very patient understanding person, wife and mother. I can put up with just about anything and not let it get to me. But after awhile I need a release also. I know he's stressed with everything going on right now, our financial situation, the "divorce", but he's not the only one affected. This all affects me also!!! When I try and tell him this, I really don't think he listens or cares. Sometimes I think he thinks that because I don't always react emotionally about things that I don't care or that I think he'll fix it all. Which is BS because I am the "calm, cool and collect" one. I try and figure out how to fix things from a rational, not emotional point. I don't know if it's the BP or what, but sometimes I just want to escape and never come back. I know that's not the answer and running away from problems is not the way to handle them. And I'm pretty good at facing things head on (granted I have my issues I avoid) but I've never been one to run. I just want, need some sort of break from the dishes, the vaccuming, the little one, from life itself. I just have a feeling I'm not going to get it for another 16 years.