M.I.C.A phisical disabilitys living with both a mental

I am living with both being mentally and phisically illnesses. I am a type 2 diabetic, I can't see numbers well. I have to concentrate really hard, because Math skills never improved, so Even though I feel perfectly sane now on proper meds, I'm still suffering from pain in my entire body by a mas of lumps growing inside. I've also learned I've been having seizures as a result of stress. I only take tylnol #4. I know what it means by mica. Mentally ill chemically addicted. I am not an addict. I take habbit forming meds, I never drink cause I am the child of a recovered alcholic, I am so proud of him for his sobriety that it is keeping me strong when I get urges to cut, I call my sponser and she prays with me to recover untill my emotions are let out first, before I cut. I cry openly now. I am not afraid. I cried while at a place we call Hillside in CHerry hill, while children roughly played around me, not daring to come too close to the crying older lady sitting alone on a bentch to chant and pray. I was waiting for the others to return from church services where my brother n sis type friends are memebers of the church chior. When theboys said,"Let's jump off the balcony." I turned my head finally and spoke up. "No no boys, becareful up there, you will get hurt. Head back inside with the adults."
  A while later an older senior said to me, "You appear as if you have been meditating for a long time I can see you been crying, are you alright." I shook his hand and said, "You are correct sir, isn't it a lovely day? Blessings to you." "And blessings to you as well maim. Have a wonderful day."
Some things I can get over. Somethings I just can't learn how to fix. So I'm not gonna try to fix anyone else at least untill I get help. I must return to the sleep study at Jefferson and possibly have tests done to see why I am sleepwalking.
Walks with a cane,
Lonewolf aka HEidi