lover no more

At work and I am bored out of my mind. 
My adult children annoy me.
I work with them and live with them. 
Never am I free to be me. 
I can't wait til my vacation. 
I am tired of being alone. 
I am tired of being judged by my children. 
I miss being married to my best friend.
Life sucks when... 
   marriages fail and deaths happen. 
   life does not go as planned. 
   the people we love are far away.
When bored, self pity thoughts take over....
     will I ever be happy again
     will I find a man to love me who is free to do so
     will I ever own a home again
I want a happily ever after.
I sit here planning my daughters wedding
annoyed that my 1st wedding ended in divorce
annoyed that the 2nd one made me a widow @ 42
Now on the brink of 45 I sit here annoyed with life and alone. 
Being Mom and Grandma, but lover no more...